𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 | 𝐞𝐧𝐡𝐲𝐩𝐞𝐧 𝐣𝐚𝐲

20: sunghoonie

"Do you trust me, Jay?" she whispered. I was too caught in the moment to understand what she meant, but I think I replied with a yes. Her face moved closer until it was inches from mine, tilting her head slightly. 

A kiss. 

After all this time of soaking in her every being, I forgot that I actually needed to kiss her. But how could I when I have never kissed anyone before? 

Slowly, the space between our lips lessened. I closed my eyes and held in a breath. I waited for it. I wasn't sure what it would be like. I assumed that Hyerin's lips would feel soft and light. The more I thought about it the more I wanted it. I wanted nothing more than to kiss her willingly, without people watching. 

But that didn't happen.

I waited for our lips to touch, but they never met.

I opened my eyes again to see her face, still as close as ever, but not moving. Her eyes were closed and her lips slightly parted. After a short moment, she pulled away and looked up at me with a grin and took both of my hands in hers. 

What just happened?

Cheers erupted whilst we walked back down the runway, hand in hand. We did our ending pose before parting ways into the two wings. I let out the biggest breath every, taking off my suit jacket to cool me down. Why was I so nervous?

"There he is! My perfect grandson!" my grandmother had a handkerchief in hand dabbing at her eyes even though she wasn't really crying, "You were brilliant out there! I can't wait to see the shoot pictures."

"Thanks, Halmeoni," I greeted as she hugged me. 

"Jay-ah, you're all grown up," mother came up to us, handing me a bottle of water. I took it straightaway and gulped down at least half of the bottle. Mother stroked my head whilst giving me a proud smile. Thankfully, she wasn't mad anymore. 

"Yah, Park Jongseong!" 

I almost choked on my water.

The boys dashed towards me, chanting my name loudly. I was engulfed into a large hug whilst they teased and laughed.

"Hyung, you should become an actor," Sunoo complimented.

"He probably was in his past life," Jungwon smiled, "Seriously hyung. We are really impressed."

"Thank you, it's harder than it looks," 

"You have to teach me to do that, Jay hyung," Ni-ki tugged at my arm excitedly making me chuckle.

"Teach you what?"

"How to act of course," he hummed with a bright smile.

"None of that was acting," I let slip. I suddenly realised what I said and my eyes widened. 

"I mean-,"

"Yah, if it wasn't acting then what was it? It really looked like you were in live with Hyerin," Heeseung laughed nudging my elbow. 

"Pfft, no. I was nervous. I'm just lucky that my nerves look natural like that," I tried to play it off but I could tell they weren't buying it. 

"He still managed to do all of that so smoothly and professionally," Jake complimented before giving me a high five. I thanked him genuinely and the rest of us scattered into small talk. A few conversations later, I noticed that Sunghoon wasn't with us. I looked around, counting among us and only made out six of us. 

"Eomma, have you seen Sunghoon?" I asked and she shook her head. She looked about the waiting area before pointing out two people further down the hallway. 

"He's talking with Eun Hyerin," she confirmed before going back to the waiting room. I nodded, trying to gather my once again scattered thoughts. 

He really liked her - I could tell. From a distance, I could see him smiling and talking to her. I could see his shy actions and hear his slightly embarrassed laugh. They got a long well and could talk on and on about whatever they liked. They looked good together too. The boys also noticed how he acted different ever since we met, Hyerin. They weren't complaining, but instead were happy that he had found someone he liked. 

Was I happy though?

Seeing her on that runway and being so close to me made me feel so many things. I wanted to be him and talk, laugh and smile with her. 

I could neither accept my feelings or his, but I knew that if came down to it, my friendship with Sunghoon was more important than anything. 

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(A/N: My exams are finally over! Sorry to those who have been waiting for an update, your patience means the world to me <3 

Please also watch the trailer I made for this book! It's my first time ever doing something like this so mind the rough editing. I might make a better one once this book is finished. I hope you can see the links between the trailer and the book.)