The End of a Contract - Xiao X Reader

19.5 : Inside Me

This is for all of you thirsty Xiao simps out there who wanted smut. This is not a part of the main story though so this is just like a short little detour before I go into a more plot heavy stuff— so if you don't like smut skip this chapter, but anyways, to those of u who are staying, enjoy<3

EDIT : this chapter makes me cringe so hard now so this whole chapter is gonna get edited. sorry not sorry ! 

c/w, i will be using more vulgar language ! also will be VERY graphic. please please please if mentions of sex or genitalia makes you uncomfortable, skip this !!!! 

Y/N'S POV

I turn over to see Xiao above me, pinning me down to the bed. Surprised by this sudden move, my face turns bright red.

"Xiao... what's gotten into you ?"

Xiao stays silent. Instead of replying, he bites his lip. I notice his breathing getting shakier and shakier. Not soon after, I feel something hard poking my leg. Immediately, I know what's going on. My mind starts to race, of course, I've imagined this moment since the day I fell in love with him, but now that it's happening... I can't help but feel unprepared.

"E-excuse me..."

I sit up so that I stop feeling his erection practically impaling my thigh. I stare him in his eyes and the only word that can describe his expression is 'eager.' I don't think I've ever experienced this kind of fear in my life. I'm not in danger but... the tension between us is way too heavy right now.

"Xiao... can I have a minute or two to prepare--"

"Forgive me."

Without warning, Xiao suddenly closes the distance between us and tenderly kisses my lips. At first, I'm taken aback by how straightforward he's being, but overtime, I melt into the kiss. He wraps his right hand around the back of my head to deepen the kiss, he then wraps his left arm around my waist to pull me in.

Once again I can feel how aroused he is. I break the kiss to take a deep breath. I was so entranced in the moment that I didn't notice I was sitting on his lap. I looked down at Xiao and saw how disheveled he looks. His hair is a mess, his clothes are slipping off of his body, and his eyes are focused on nothing else but me. He licks his lips, hungry for more.

I bite my lip. As much as I want this... this doesn't feel like Xiao. It's like he reverted to his most primal instincts... 

"Xiao I... I can't do this. Not right now."

Xiao's expression then suddenly shifted. From looking like a predator, ready to devour its prey, his gaze softened, like he just realized what he was doing. 

He quietly lets me go and gets me off of his lap. He then moves to the end of the bed and looks away from me, he seems to be deep in thought.

"I'm sorry, Y/N." He glances down at the tent in his pants. "I'll... go and take care of this, go back to bed."

Xiao stands up to walk to the bathroom, but before he can escape my reach, I grab onto his wrist. He turns his head to look at me, I can see his face is still as red as when we started.

"Stay."

Xiao stands still for a moment before deciding to come back to bed with me. He sits across me from me, cross legged. I can see he still hasn't calmed down one bit. I never realized he was this... big.

"I can help with this."

I slowly reach out my hand to grab the bulge in his pants but before I can grab it, Xiao stops me.

"Are you sure you want to ? I don't... want to force you to do anything."

I look up and smile at him.