SEMISHIRA ONESHOTS

☔️Don't Come Back☔️

ANGST YUM YUM

SO THIS IS JUST A PLOT MY ANGSTY OLD MY THOUGHT UP- UHH ENJOY-

ok i need to get serious smfh-

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Shirabu and Semi were cuddling in front of the television, basking in each others warmth and presence. 

Each other.

It wasn't one-sided. 

Right?

Shirabu snuggled deeper into his boyfriends chest, almost purring at the warm sensation. He wished they could stay like that forever. Oh well, at least they would stay together forever.

Lovers.

Forever.

Right?

Semi stroked Shirabu's hair with a slight frown on his face. The younger's eyes stayed on the movie playing all the while. Semi sighed. 

I wish.. I wish I could control it.. I'm sorry Shirabu..

time skip- I'M LAZY OK-

"Alright Shirabu, I should probably get going.."

"Aw... ok.. I'll miss you.."

"Mhm.."

Shirabu looked up at his boyfriend who suddenly looked.. worried? Sad? Upset? Anyways, he didn't look happy. Shirabu took his love's hands in his.

"Eita, are you okay? You look upset.."

Semi removed his hands slowly. "Shira.. I-I need to tell you something.."

Shirabu looked at him quizzically. "Hm? What is it?"

"I.." he took a deep breath and looked up. "I'm loosing feelings. I-I think i've lost them completely. I'm... sorry. I don't think this, us, can work."

Those words hit Shirabu like a truck. He stood, speechless, not even breathing. 

Tears fell down his face.

Semi looked up and his eyes widened. Never, in his 2 years of knowing Shirabu, had he seen the smaller boy cry.

"H-hey Shirabu.. Shirabu i'm so-"

"No. Don't say sorry. I-it's not your fault." He forced a smile, completely fake, as if it had been painted onto his broken face.

"In fact.. it's mine."

"Woah- where did you get that idea?"

"Well it's my fault, isn't it? I'm not good enough, I mean-" he scoffed, but it didn't have any strength in it. It was broken. "I don't even show affection. I.. I don't deserve you anyways. You made a good choice."

"What? I- Shirabu-"

"I just want to know one thing."

"...yeah?"

"What was it?"

"..What?"

"Am I not attractive enough?"

"N-"

"Nice enough?"

"Sh-"

"Popular enough?"

"Pl-"

"WHAT THE FUCK IS IT, SEMI? IS IT MY BANGS? MY FASION?" Tears full of pain and sorrow rolled down his cheeks, his face held a shattered expression.

"Shira ple-"

"I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH! I NEVER WAS! IT'S EVERYTHING, ISN'T IT? NOTHING ABOUT ME IS-"

"SHIRABU SHUT UP! SHUT YOUR GODDAMN MOUTH FOR ONCE! IT ISN'T MY FAULT I LOST FEELINGS, IS IT? IT'S FUCKING NATURAL, ISN'T IT? OR DO YOU NEED ME TO FUCKING ENLIGHTEN YOU?"

Shirabu's eyes widened. He stepped back shakily, feeling like his legs were going to give out. 

Semi's breath hitched. He covered his mouth. "Shirabu wait-"

"I see." 

"..W-what?"

Shirabu chuckled. "I get it."

"Wait pleas-"

"I get it! I'm too fucking annoying! I can never shut up, when it comes to you at least! I thought I didn't speak that often, but I guess I was wrong! I need to shut up more! That's what it was!" He had a smile plastered onto his face but it was filled with nothing but pain. 

"Ok. Understood. I understand why i'm a failure now. I understand why you lost feelings. I understand it all."

"Shirabu please, listen to me!"

"What are you going to tell me, you're sorry? I mean, it's not like it's your fault! It's mine for being an annoying little bitch."

"No.. no that's not it."

"Then what is it. Go on."

"I.. it's not your fault. You might say different, but it's not. It's nobody's fault. It just... I don't think we can work. And that isn't your fault."

"I'm sorry."

"..What? I should be the one-"

"But I don't believe you. It's my fault. It's my fault you don't love me anymore." More tears streamed down his face, heart shattered into a million pieces.

"It's my fault! Damn it, why can't I just be fucking good enough!"

"Please, Kenjirou, I hate seeing you like this..."

Shirabu wiped his tears with his sleeve. "Ok. You.. you can leave me. But I have one thing to tell you."

"..and what is it..?"

"Don't come back to me. Don't get back together with me. You don't actually love me. If you came back, that would be your guilt making actions for you. I don't want to date you because of your guilt. I want to date you because you genuinely love me. But that won't happen. So.."

He took a deep breath and looked up at a stunned Semi.

"Don't come back."

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A/N: 

SO HOW WAS THAT ONE MA PARAKEETS?

uhHhHHhH so that was that- umm ANGST YUM YUM-

LSKFA;SKLJF;ASLJ THAT WAS KINDA SADDDD

gonna go do some requests brb-

alsO I LOVE YOU ALL, STAY SAFE, EAT, SLEEP, AND DRINK WELL, I LOVE YOU ALL LOTS MUAH MUAH KITHES MUAH

-Rin💫