Runaway Groom (Groom Series Book 1) (English Translation)

Chapter 18

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Chapter 18: Envelope

Gulf's Point of View

"I don't want to be unfair to Hughie. And I have a promise to him. So I am sorry. Maybe we are really not meant for each other."

I tried so hard to hold back my tears. I wanted to cry so bad. I wanted to hug Mew so tight. A big part of my heart wanted to take back everything I said but my determination to be true to my words outpowered everything.

My heart is in pieces. But this is for the best. This is the right thing to do.

"You're telling me that I am the one you love but you are choosing someone else over me. If that's what you want, then you will only hurt all of us. You know to yourself that you still love me. And you also know that you don't really love Hughie more than me. You would hurt us all three. Sooner or later, Hughie will realize that he is not getting the love that he deserves. I was selfish, Gulf. Why can't you be like me and stop being selfless? Give yourself the chance to be happy."

"The last time I gave myself the chance to be happy was when I decided to marry you, Mew. And where did it lead me? To a broken heart. That is why I'm scared, Mew. And you can't blame me."

I stood up from being seated on the sand and turned my back. The surrounding is now dark and you can hear the crickets from afar.

"If you still love me Gulf, and if you love yourself, please give me a second chance. I can still make you happy. I promise that I will be better. I promise that I won't hurt you again. Please come back to me," he pleaded.

"I have made up my mind, Mew. Loving you does not mean that I should take you back. I might not love Hughie now, but I might love him in the future. Maybe three years is not enough?" My voice broke.

He stood up and made me face him. His eyes were still bloodshot. He is close to crying. He reached for my hands.

"It was three long years, Gulf. You weren't the only one who was hurt. I was hurting too. I also longed for you. There was not a single day that I did not blame myself. I admit that it was my fault. And I know I'm being selfish again. But I'm just selfish when it comes to you. I want you so bad. Because I only love you."

I shook my head.

"I'm sorry, Mew." I am moved by the sudden outburst of his feelings. But we are not only talking about ourselves here. I have to consider Hughie with my decisions.

"If that's what you really want..." He let go of my hands and bowed his head. "...then there is nothing more I can do. Even if I want to kneel down before you, beg you to take me back, I know that it will be useless. It won't change your mind." His voice was devastated. "Can I at least hug you for the last time?" he asked sadly.

I nodded even though I wanted to burst in tears. He hugged me tightly and I hugged him back. I couldn't hold back my tears anymore so I let myself cry.

This decision is very hard for me. It's true that I still love him. But I don't want to be unfair to Hughie.

In that hug, I felt his fast heartbeat. I'm sure that he can also feel mine.

The hug was long. Five minutes, I guess. He did nothing but hug me tightly. I cried silently as I embraced the warmth of his hug.

He then broke the hug and immediately turned his back against me. He started walking away.

"I guess this is goodbye? I wish you and Hughie all the best in life."

I wanted so much to run towards him and hug him from the back. It pains me to see him hurting. But my legs wouldn't move. And my heart was getting number in each passing second.