Things girls wish they never DID

Troubled

Through out my short life, I have come to realise the bitter truth. We are all replaceable. We are here but for a moment and we all are meant to be heartbroken at some point in life.

I sat down by the window watching the rain fall from the edge of the building, rushing to kiss gravity.

I felt drained like a little girl whose candy has been snatched from her fragile fingers. Maybe my candy is actually a human being.

Oh well what do I know! This unending agony is quite unbearable.

At sunrise, Kim, Gilmore and Edmund came over to try and elevate my rather miserable days. A thousand words can not possibly explain what am going through.

It's like Lucas just died and that part he occupied in me died too, save that Lucas isn't dead. The bloody bastard is alive and breathing. Inhaling another girl's hair, caressing her body with his, cheating on me.

Arrrgggggh.

The agony of being the one that didn't walk away is far worse than anyone has ever told. I wish I could buy a time machine to take me back to the day I met Lucas.

Maybe instead of a handshake I'd have broken the beer bottle on his pathetic head. I needed some distraction, a strong one for that matter. And I don't know where to start.

So now am watching the rain, letting my eyes toss my pain in the dropping waters with hopes that it would wash away. I am losing my warmth and turning cold. Not my body, my heart.

The phone rang and rang and I just ignored it. Truthfully what would Lucas say but another bag of lies, trying to get my forgiveness.

I slowly got tired of my self medicated pain relief, actually the rain started becoming irritating to watch. So my eyes made way to the ringing phone. Who the hell was calling..... maybe it's someone else, I thought to myself.

Oh! It was Kim.

"Hey"

"Jarel. I was scared you might have done something to yourself. How are you doing" Kim asked sounding really worried.

"Am trying to keep it together, but am at the briek of shattering"  tears were slowly stealing their way out of my eyes and my voice was changing to fit my emotion.

"Hey, hey! There's no need to cry now okay! Am coming over and am going to take you out to wherever you want to be. So wipe those delicate tears and let's go smile the ordeal away." He snuffed as he said the last words and that put a tiny smile on my lips.

"Okay"

I headed to the shower and washed up, pampering myself like a newborn baby. I took Kim's invitation as my first step out of this misery and I had to look perfect for the new me.

I got myself into a pink and blue stripped jumpsuit, a black jacket and black shoes. I combed through my dark afro hair and finished off with silver cross earrings. After my satisfaction was met in the mirror, I sat by my bed waiting.

Not too long after, Kim horned, signaling it's time to go.

"Hey you are going to make the neighbors have panic attacks with your damn hooting" I cursed speaking in an audible whisper. Kim chuckled and asked where I'd like to be. I had no place in mind and he made one remarkable suggestion.

Ladies and gentlemen, Kim is taking me to...... darn my phone is ringing.

Ha! Kim is trying to get Jarel back on her feet. Such a sweet friend. Just a thought though....where on Earth did Kim take Jarel.

Let's find out in the next chapter. And please, your comments are priceless. So are your votes. Remember am not a pro, am just writing. Lol