Summers Over: A Mr. Awesome Novel

Undecided

The words you send me.

I've heard it over a thousand times.

I call you up.

Just to hear your angery lines.

All the pointless whines.

My friend listen through on the other line.

She couldn't believe hear ears.

Then when you found out.

The harsh words that rang through her ears.

She did nothing to you.

That night my heart was split into two.

I wanted to keep you.

Then another part of me said to leave you.

One simple request.

It turns into hell.

You always argue what I ask.

As if it was to change our lives forever.

You say I always want you to change.

Mr. Awesome, that's not true.

There's not a point in being with you if you can't be you.

I love you for you.

I just need you to see that.

The little things I want to change have nothing to do with who you are.

But that last night was when something cold hit my heart.

I realized what my friend said might be true.

I pulled the ring off.

Handing it back to you.

My heart was twisted in pain.

I couldn't decide what I truely wanted.

Mr. Awesome, you have no idea how close I was to letting you go.

All this has to stop.

Before it leaves us both with broken hearts.

But the moment you told me not to trust you was the moment I fell.

 I was falling from our cloud.

I got thrown out of those big brown doors.

They got locked closed.

But you kept the key to my heart.

Even when you made it cry so sharp.

Mr. Awesome, I realized last night I can't let you go.

I can't put myself through all that pain.

There was no point in leaving something you love so much.

When you know it will just hurt you like crazy.

I wasn't sure where my heart wanted to go.

I felt two total different things.

I heard what people say.

Yes I listen.

Yes I care.

But you mean more to me then them.

Mr. Awesome, you left me undecied but I could never let what we have tare.