Memory Lane {Ryden|Brallon} OneShot

Memory Lane

Memory Lane

So it is and was his life, more like a roller coaster that he was tired of. It had been more downs than highs, and the worst part is that after climbing you have to go down. Rather, after each high, it has to fall.

He had fallen into so much for being only 25 years old and was sure that during all that time he had not learned anything, because the roller coaster was still working and on the horizon the end isn't visible yet. But constantly Brendon sat in the lonely room, on the bed with masculine cologne scent, to recall his past inside of his head, and maybe just maybe, doing this he might find something that will prove he had clearly learned something.

Always he began thinking about Ryan. The color of his eyes that had earlier seemed perfect, now seems monotonous, nothing great, special or perfect. Or the way his lips than previously he believed simulated a heart seems no more than common lips which were always came words that would eventually consume him more and more in that game that had become his life. Ryan, with his normal eyes and common lips, owned one of the most hypocritical smiles he had ever known. He had always been a liar.

They had met at school when Brendon moved to town. Ryan was the kind of guy who could be the champion or the loser depends how he wanted it, he modified himself, and he'll had thousands of masks that he used at his convenience. Such as the way in which he left his bangs falling over his eyes when he needed the world to stop spinning just for him, or how he combed in a Mohican when he wanted to be outgoing, flirting with girls even knowing that Brendon was taking him by the hand.

At first it just made Brendon feel bad with himself, because it was obviously that there must be something wrong with him, maybe he was not cool enough, or funny, or cute to Ryan, Ryan perhaps deserved someone better than him. So instead of getting angry with his boyfriend every time he discovered him cheating, Brendon was the one who ended up apologizing for never being enough.

Ryan liked to take Brendon's hand and whisper "I love you" in his ear, words that tickle the heart of the youngest, making him feel dreamed like if that ugly town was Neverland, where Brendon never ever wanted to leave.  *

It was funny the way in which Ryan posing as he was the girl in the relationship, he liked the details and always texted Brendon every night with a "Go to sleep, I'll still love you when you wake up" but the next morning, Ryan was another person, so different, shouting at the youngest the worst things, like where brendon was wrong, and he liked to emphasize every imperfection to him until Bren started crying and apologizing.

Everyone knew that Ryan Ross wouldn't bring him anything good, that he was not good for him. Everyone except Brendon.

Like in the summer 9 year ago, when Brendon discovered him doing it with Emma Miller, in Ryan's room, in the same bed where Ryan had sworn that at the end of the day, he'll continue loving him.

Everyone in town heard what had happened, and Monday at school everyone kept talking about it.

-Did you hear that Brendon Urie discovered his boyfriend in bed with Emma?

-Poor guy, he seems so sweet...

-No, I think he's stupid, it was expected that sooner or later he'll discovered it.

That day it was Ryan who screamed horrible words that will pay expensive, he shouted him to go away, and that he was a nuisance. He shouted that he didn't want him unless to having him in bed, that it was time to him to know his place. And Brendon just cried.

He cried a lot of bitter tears and pieces of broken hearts. That night Ryan broke him too much and so strong that he begged for death.

That was the summer when Brendon left to dress smiles and short sleeve shirts, that was also the summer when his body was full of scars that the razor blade made.