a different type of high | s.r.

part three

The chilliness of the air nipped at the back of my neck and arms through my sweater, causing me to shiver. Spencer looked down at me with concern in his eyes. "We need to get you a proper jacket. It's too cold out for you to be walking in just a sweater and jeans," he spoke, his tone coming up an octave. I refrained from rolling my eyes because of him changing the subject. I'll of course bring it up later. He's clearly not telling me anything about what happened.

"I'm okay, really. With just this," I tugged on my sweater. Spencer looked down at me and raised an eyebrow. "Really, Spencer. It's fine. I don't think I have money for a coat anyways," I shrugged it off as nothing. Spencer looked away from me, thinking about something to say. Then he suddenly pulled his scarf off and wrapped it around my neck. "I'm fine!" I exclaimed as I stepped away from him. "Spencer, if being cold is the only thing that gives me feeling, then let me be cold," I looked up at him, "I'm going through enough withdrawal to be depressed and shit. Just let me be cold," I pulled the scarf off and handed it back over to him. The scarf stayed draped in my hand, swaying in the wind, between Spencer and me.

Spencer stared at the scarf in my hand before looking up at my face. I couldn't exactly read the expression he wore, but he was definitely upset about my sudden mood change. He slowly shook his head as he pushed the scarf to me.

"Keep it. If you don't want a jacket and you won't let me buy you one, I want you to keep my scarf," he looked up at my face before taking the scarf from my hand. He carefully wrapped it around my neck and placed his hands on my shoulders. I rolled my eyes before smiling at him. "Please, I have another one at home,"

"Are you too stubborn to take no for an answer?" I asked as I started walking again. Spencer laughed as he caught up to my pace. I smiled as he returned his arm around my shoulders. I leaned more into his embrace.

"That would be correct," he looked down at me and smiled. I rolled my eyes again and shook my head.

We stayed silent on the remainder of the walk, it wasn't a far walk from my apartment to the coffee shop. Occasionally, Spencer would crack a joke or two, causing me to laugh. Which was good. I missed a good laugh or two.

"So, do any of your work friends know... about this?" I looked up at Spencer as we walked side-by-side into a coffee shop. It was probably a good bet to say that he probably frequents more often than not. "This being you and going to NA, you and you're... and you and me," I stopped myself from saying any more, mostly because I knew he hated when we talked about our issues outside of NA or the community center. I understood why he hated it, but it didn't leave much left to talk about.

"No, no they don't," he mumbled as we stepped in line. There were three or four other people in front of us. Just a short wait, that's it. I'm okay with waiting, in all honesty. The longer we're here, the longer we are away from the community center. And God knows we both hate that place... "And I'd prefer if it stayed that way," he spoke, mostly to himself, like he was reminding himself that no one knew of this secret life he has.

"I see," I whispered and stepped closer to him. Spencer looked down at me before wrapping an arm around my shoulder. I looked down and smiled as he held me closer. "I've never been here before," I looked around the cafe, taking in the atmosphere of the place. It was comfy and cozy. As opposed to the outside, which was cold and snowy.

"Pretty good. Although, it's kinda hard for me to say no to coffee," he laughed as he stepped forward in line. I returned the laughter and nodded.

"What do you get? Normal black coffee? Or a fun drink?" I looked up at him. Spencer looked back down at me and thought.

"Usually just plain coffee with cream and some sugar," he nodded as he looked towards the front at the menu. I followed his gaze and looked over the menu myself. "What about you?"