Six Degrees Of Separation [HERS]

Third

Ito ang problema kapag masyado kang nag-invest sa isang tao. Kapag ibinigay mo ang lahat sa kanya at iniwanan ka nya, wala ka nang maibibigay sa susunod pang makikilala at posibleng mamahalin mo. Pero... iba rin kasi e. Wala sa isip natin na mahihiwalay tayo sa mga taong naging malaking parte na ng mundo natin. Wala naman 'yun sa thinking natin once pumasok tayo sa isang relasyon, di ba? Kapag nagmahal ka, you only worry about remembering the birthdays and the anniversaries, about their health, about their happiness. You worry about your future together. You worry about how things will play out for the both of you. Kapag ba nagmahal ka, iniisip mo kaagad kung paano kayo maghihiwalay at kung bakit? Hindi naman, di ba? Sa latter part na 'yun ng isang relasyon.

You try to enjoy every moment to create beautiful memories with them. Kaya kapag nagmahal ka, walang reservations. Sugod kung sugod. If love is indeed a battlefield, then you're gonna fire ahead. You'll use all your ammos. You'll fight to death. Because the only losers in love are those who aren't willing to risk it all, to give it all. Cowards.

I met this French guy one night while I was touring the Louvre. He's tall, handsome and romantic. Hey, if a French guy can't sweep me off my feet, I don't know who can. I felt something there... inside my heart. Whatever it is, I hang on to it as if my life depended on it. Even though I was not completely smitten by this guy, I grabbed the opportunity and chose to nurture it. I taught myself to fall in love with him.

It was not that hard really. He's everything I could ever ask for in a guy. Everything, except that... he's not him.

It felt like I was wounded and was put to medication pero hindi nakakatulong yung gamot sa paggaling ng sugat ko so I had to stop taking it. In Layman's term... I let go of the French guy.

Hindi sa hindi ko ito gusto. In fact, gustong-gusto ko ito. But liking isn't enough. What I felt for him was passion and love. Intense, death-defying, game-changing love. And it's like no one can top it. I already embraced his imperfections and shortcomings. I already loved the man that I knew. I already gave him my heart and soul. What more can I offer the others? Scraps?

They have always pointed out that I can do better. That I deserve better. Pero hindi ako nakinig. Kase mahal ko sya. Yun lang ang puno't dulo. Whatever flaws they saw in him, pinagtatakpan ko. Nagbulag-bulagan ako. And it made me happy. He made me happy.