TL TD

It's not a crime to feel

BEN'S POV

Parties have never been my thing but somehow everyone seems to love going to parties.

It was loud and annoying. But my team was celebrating so i had to be here

We finally became national champions and they were going crazy about it.

Everything feels too real for me. I wish i could make things different.

I was never the perfect brother. The one thing i could have done right i did wrong

"Why tf are you all by yourself and why the hell are you drinking water" Sam shouted so loudly, it wouldn't matter cause the music was so loud

I ignored him and continued sipping my drink

"Bro you've got to see this" Andrew came running in, he looked really drunk

"Abey is messing with some fag dude" he laughed

Some fag? Who says that?

"Come on bro, let's go see" Sam nudged me

I stood up, leaving my glass behind, even i was curious, i wanted to see what the excitement was about

I got upstairs where almost everyone gathered, it wasn't so loud in here. Appearantly everyone had gathered round. I pushed through the crowd

I noticed a smaller dude on the floor with just his boxer. I've not seen him before, but what does it matter

I noticed he had dick drawings all over his body

Everyone was laughing, giving side remarks, taking pictures.

"Ben my boy" Abey walked up to me. He reeked of alcohol

He was laughing just like everyone else

"Came to join the fun?"

I moved slightly away from him

"What's going on?" I asked watching the shy dude on the floor. He looked a mess

"I caught this bitch in my bathroom, you won't believe he was watching me strip"

"You had your fun huh?" He laughed as he kicked the boy on the floor, who just hid his face in shame

He kept laughing

"I bet he enjoyed it, got aroused from watching me? fag"

I exhaled

I hate getting involved in things like this

I faced Abey

"Bro come on its not worth it, let it be"

He laughed

"Why? Cause you're a fag too"

I sighed

"Hey get up" i reached out to the smaller dude

He hid his face obviously embarrassed

Everyone started making boo sounds.

"Ben, what are you doing"

I ignored him

"Dude if you don't get up i might have to carry you and i know you wouldn't want that"

He stood up immediately, still hiding his face

I took off my varsity jacket placing it around his shoulders

"Cover yourself"

I turned to leave but Abey stood in my way

He smirked