TL TD

HOLD me

FLASHBACK

"ma'am like I said, these episodes would continue to reoccur. The pain would get worse by the day. That is why you need to admit your daughter for palliative care"

I watched his lips move as he spoke to my parent

"Is there anything else that could be done?" Dad asked

"Sir, she doesn't have much time left. All we could do is make the process painless"

I thought about Aliyah. I'm so glad I let us happen and then I heard the question that have been on my mind for days

"How long does she have left" my Dad ask. He held my mom's hand. I watch her dry her face from time to time

"A week, it could be less"

"Honey you need to be admitted" Mom said trying to stop herself from crying

I shaked my head

"I don't want that"

"Ma'am you need to understand the repercussion of the decision you're making. You're going to be having series of attacks, shortage of breath, blackouts, pains.."

"I know" I cut him short

"All you could do is make the pain feel less, but you can't cure me, can you?"

I stared at him awaiting a response

"No we can't but what we can..."

"It doesn't matter Doc. I'm still going to die, at least let me do so freely, on my own terms"

I smiled

I turned to my parent

"Mom, Dad, please?"

I could tell this was a really hard decision for them, but it's my life and this is what I want.

"Fine" Dad breath out

He faced the Doctor

"But give us some medications at least"

I rolled my eyes. I hate meds

PRESENT DAY

"So, I'm going to be locked up with you for a week" Aliyah said as she dropped her bag next to my bed

I chuckled

"No one is locking you up Al"

She smiled

"Any rules I must abide by" she wiggle her brows

"Yeah, just don't be naughty" I chuckled

"Oh, trust me, I'll be naughty" she pulled me closer, hands on my hips

She brought her face closer to mine

"I'll be really naughty" she kissed my neck

She sat on the bed, pulling me to sit on her lap. Her lips never left my neck. She bit softly into my skin

Al, I moaned

"Al, my parent are downstairs"

She kept kissing my neck

"You didn't care about that the last time" she said as she continued her torture

She cupped my breast in her hand, squeezing gently

Fuck

"Al I'm serious" I spoke out of breath

She brought her hand down, moving it underneath my shirt, tracing circles on my skin