the way i see things lil peep

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emma's pov:

i sat down while everyone kept staring at me.
okay guys can you please stop staring at me it's getting a little weird i said taking a bite of my
bagel,okay i'm just going to go eat somewhere
else i said standing up EMMA nailea said
what i said turning around your dress is so short she said i know i laughed and walked out.
i sat on my phone,eating my breakfast.
gus walked out and stared at me,what i said
why are you wearing that dress he said
maybe because i wanted to i said back well
no one can have you cause your fucking mine
he said angrily i'm no ones i said walking away.

come on emma the uber is here nailea said
okay one second i said,i grabbed my phone and wallet then walked out to the uber.
i got in the uber andrea slapped my ass
ANDREA i said sitting down she laughed,you
know you loved it she said i rolled my eyes and went on my phone as per usual.
he texted me.

gus🤎🪐

you better take that dress off later

um no
listen gus i'm not yours i'm not your property
were not together anymore okay
you cheated on me
the other night was a one night thing
its not going to happen again

u regret the other night

idk

what do you mean you don't know

ugh i don't regret it happy

then what did i do

last night gus

i literally did nothing wrong
*read 1:21pm*

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i put my phone down and talked to andrea.
we got at this house,it looked like a trap house.
everyone got out,where the fuck are we i said
me and peeps friends tracy said i nodded my head and walked in behind nailea,there were
so many people in the house and they weren't
sober,gus and tracy walked away from us.
this is fucking boring i said yeah we just get left here danny said i nodded my head let's go find them i said,we all walked around and finally found them,gus was doing a line of coke.
i look down at my feet,i stood with everyone.
tracy stood up,guys this is nedarb he's the one who makes the amazing beats for me and peep tracy said everyone said hi,while i stayed quiet.
i felt my hand being grabbed and pulled gus.
we made it outside,stop i said pulling his
grip off mine,what the fuck was that gus said
what do you mean i said back your all quiet and not saying a word to anyone he said well maybe
i just saw you do a line of coke and you know
that i hate when you do drugs gus your fucking
ruining your life i said angrily and walked back into the house,you okay mateo said yeah it's just gus i said mateo pulled me into a hug.

gus's pov:

emma and mateo we're hugging i wanted to fucking kill him,no one can touch her.
i walked up to them and pushed them away for eachother,what the fuck gus emma said get your hands off her i threanted him,he was silent,i'm leaving emma said go fucking drama queen i scoffed at her.

emma's pov:

i'm leaving i said go fucking drama queen gus
scoffed at me,can you hear something i said to mateo its like a annoying sound.
i walked out of the house and ordered a uber,
gus was a whole different person when he did drugs,i fucking hated it so much.
everyone expect tracy and gus came out,i wanna leave now i said hugging andrea i know she said we'll be home soon she said.

[ a few hours later ]

gus and tracy haven't come back yet.
it was around 6pm,we all decided to get food.
i knew there were going to come home fucked
up,the probably did that when we weren't here.
gus hates america with his whole heart,he
wants to get away from it,i mean he came to la
to pursue a music career,but i know he hated la
everyone is so fake and there all the same,
they wanna look like that person or they want to have all the clothes that are trending.
its really fucking sad that,that's is people's life
style.

for the rest of the night we all sat on the couch talked,watched some films and ate a lot of
snacks,gus and tracy are missing out on this fun,it's not the same without them really.
everyone started to get tired,expect me cause
i'm only really alive at night and hate the day time,yeah i know i have issues you don't have to remind me,why the fuck am i so mean.
i went to my bedroom and sat on my bed.
listen to some music,cried over gus and tiktoks.
the song "beautiful boy" by john lennon came on,its such a nice song,it always reminds of
gus,he is a beautiful boy.i sat in my room,lights
off,the reflection from the lights outside coming through my window,i layed there in my bed blaring beautiful boy and thinking about gus.

i replayed that song i don't know how maybe times,the lyrics beautiful boy came,i looked
and my door opened,it was gus,he looked
terrible,tears falling his face.
he walked in,i'm sorry for everything he said i
walked over to him it's okay baby i hugged him
i felt the pain,he was hurting bad all i wanted
to do his make him feel loved,i love him.
we stood there for around a minute,i pulled
away gus go lay on my bed i said he nodded and walked towards my bed,i closed the door.
i put my lights on a low setting,the house had a fancy ass lighting thing i don't know what to call it.

he lied on my bed i layed beside him,i looked at into his eyes, "beautiful beautiful beautiful boyyyyyyy" came from my phone,your my
beautiful boy i said kissing him passionately
he kissed me back,i pulled away and wrapped my arms around him,we both fell asleep in the position,it was all going to change tomorrow.

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sorry for the short chapter
i highly recommend that you listen to
beautiful boy by john lennon
hope u enjoyed