Not a Love Story

26

"What do you want to talk about?" I say as I sat on your bed.

I knew this would happen, I knew I shouldn't have come.

Where are your parents anyway?

"Want something to drink?" You went to a mini fridge you had in your large room.

"Sure." I say since I did feel a bit thirsty.

"What do you want?"

I shrug and you grab a random drink, then throw it to me.

If it weren't for my somewhat fast reflexes, I would have dropped the bottle.

"Thanks."

You hum in response.

Then you sit on an office chair with wheels.

You slowly roll closer to me.

"So what do you want to talk about?" I ask again.

"Do you like me?" You're straight forward I forget that sometimes.

I open the drink and look at it as if it were the most interesting thing in the world.

I sigh, it's a habit now, and take a gulp.

"So?" You ask again.

I put the drink on a table next to your bed and sit properly.

"I don't know." I say honeslty.

You didn't seem fazed but you did seem a bit confused.

"What do you mean you don't know?"

I shrug and decide that the floor is the next best thing to look at.

"I like you."

I laugh at this and see you don't.

"Don't say that. You don't like me. You don't." I say as my smile fell and I looked to your eyes, mine were filled with sadness.

Yours were bland with no emotions.

"But you like me, and I like you. Why don't we give it a try?" You completely ignore my previous comment.

I sigh again because really there's nothing else I could do.

"I don't think you like me. I really don't. You like her, you're always with her or another person. But not me." I say as I remember all the times you completely ignored me.

"Because I get nervous around you." I didn't believe you.

"Doesn't seem like it."

"Because I play it cool."

Well if that's true you do a good job cause I never notice if you're nervous.

"I wouldn't win a bear for just anyone. Or bring them to a spot where it's usually just for me." You come closer to me and drop your now empty bottle.

"You call me colorless. You're always talking about me."

I blush at the fact you knew.

"Who told you?!"

I don't even deny it because I know you would figure it out anyways.

"That's my secret." You smirked as I frowned.

Once I find out who did it, I'll murder them slowly.

I pout since it's just a habit of mine when I'm upset or something doesn't go my way.

Then I crossed my arms.

"See you're cute."

I shook my head and bit my bottom lip.

"Yes you are, very cute."

"Leave me alone, you don't like me. You'll just play with me and leave me when you're done." I say, being brutally honest.

Your smirk falls and you look into my eyes I still see no emtion.

"No, I won't."

"Don't deny the truth if I don't. You left her, she seemed to genuinely like you. But you left her, played with her feelings and for what? Just for the heck of it! Now I'm your next toy?" I say frustrated as I grip my own arms.

You stay silent, finally I see an emotion.

But I don't know what it is, your eyes confuse me.

"I like your eyes." I say out of the blue.

"I know."

We sit there in silence.

"I should leave." I say as I get up, and turn back to the stuffed animal once more.

"I should have stayed away from you."

I say painfully in a whisper, as I go to your door.

"You're a player and you'd only play with me too." I open the door and walk out.

You didn't stop me this time. You didn't do anything, now I proved it.

I mean absolutely nothing to you.

I am no one to you.

I walk out his house.

I will never be anyone to you.

I go to the front gate and close it behind me.

And I for sure will never go out with you.

You don't like me!

You don't care about me!

You can't smile at me without a reason.

You, you, you, YOU!

It's always you!

I head to the bus station.

I can't take it anymore! I don't want to like you!