HOW COME IM HERE ONCE AGAIN TRYING TO FIGURE WHAT I SHOULD DO OR WANT?
It's getting hard to keep doing this cycle. I just want my best friend back in my life. Wanting to be loud and crazy. Feeling this uncomforted going through my body. Laying on my bed hoping that I won't wake up from the dreams. Once again the emotions, actions, and debts getting bigger. Im just on the stressed cycle that I'm the only one who has the fault for it. I ask myself these questions on repeat that I can't understand the answer that I created for them. Just that its my fault and I chose it this way. No matter how badly I try to FAKE the answer. It goes back to the same worse answer I can think of. I hate myself more than anything now. In every sentence I see there an I for what is my fault of the problem.. I dont know why I feel like this today.
hopefully I get to Over it like I always do..
