I'm mad and sad. I can't get over it. The more I try to forgive the more I can't. I just want to yell and kiss you. You got feeling like everything is upside down. I didn't fall this hard the first time but this time I really tried so hard to keep you but it wasn't enough. I don't know what to do. The first time I didn't make you my friend but the second I made you my best friend. The one who I loved so much and got on my nerves sometimes but I just can't. I told you so many things that only my wife and family knows. I wish that i didn't show or tell you my secrets even though I'm a window who everyone knows who I am. You broke the window with your fist and didn't get cut. The many things I loved but now I wish I hated. Dreamed about the smirk on your face holding your boba looking at some stranger who isn't me. Turning back to look through me. If invisible to you and the world.
April 22 2019
