Uneasy OVERthinking.
Why am I doing it?
What do I get out of it?
Dragging myself through the pain that I can't breathe in the daylight
My mind on drugs keeps me from thinking straight. It's driving me crazy every day.
FOR WHAT?
Remembering the tears that I lost during that time. Begging someone to stay with me and doing anything to change for them.
Yet again, I'm still the loser who thought I could do it—not knowing my value in this world.
Just the comfort of someone who doesn't care about me.
Knowing now that I'm making myself a joke to keep my fake smile from breaking down in public. Just want to be happy within me, and I WILL WITHOUT YOU OR ANYONE.
