Selfharm/depressed/Dark poems

part 43

hello all my beautiful/handsome readers, How are you? 😊

-my world is falling, crumbling apart,
Life is meaningless and that's just the start.
My hearts so sore, I can feel it breaking & I swear to god it leaves me shaking.
Late at night till early morning.
Lying in bed eyes wide open.
Didn't sleep last night like all the others.
Instead I just lye crying in the covers.
Quick! Whip away the tears before they come near,must hide the depression & the feelings of fear.
For all they know I'm happy & I'm always smiling but deep inside my soul is dying. I can feel it rotting, it wants to scream but I won't let it, not for the time being.
I can never tell them how I really feel cause the happiness I wear to them is "real".
For them to hear that I wish I was dead, it would kill them.
They'd be filled with dread.
So I'll try my best not to be selfish.
I'll keep my secret hidden & just let them rest but gosh! I can't take this any longer.
I'll probably be dead before they wonder..

-"kill yourself"
Darling I'm trying.

-she got quieter,
Her nights got longer,
Her blades got bigger,
Her sleeves got longer,
Her meals became smaller,
She became skinnier,
Her music got louder,
But no one noticed.