Selfharm/depressed/Dark poems

Part 9

-Im not suicidal, i dont think i would kill myself,

I just think that if i was in a situation, for instance,

A car was driving straight towards me, im not sure if i'd get out of the way..

-Im not depressed,

I can still smile at pretty things,

Laugh at funny jokes,

Talk to people

And enjoy nice days,

But when i go inside,

When i am alone,

There is something broken,

And i fall into sadness,

I look in the mirror and i dont  like what i see,

Tears always start to fall when im falling asleep,

And i miss something,

That doesnt exist.

I am not depressed,

Ive just been sad for awhile,

But i will always find the light,

And smile (:

-I think we all want to meet that person who will keep us from swallowing that bottle of pills.

-Im smiling but im close to tears.

-Depression isnt always the gi who is crying in her bathroom,

or the boy who is always wearing long sleeves,

it isnt always suicide notes and pill bottles sometimes,

its all smiles and good grades,

the boy who is always helpful and the girl who you always borrow things from,

Depression isnt always easy to notice.

-Part of me want to die tonight,

Part of me whats to get in a accident,

Part of me wants someone to notice and stop me.

hey im gunna try to post every monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday and friday (: but omg it was a good day (: even if i found out reo already moved on, ah'well fuck it, FUCK HIM, he lost me, im gone, he's not getting me back, hmm ive had lots of bad days, its nice to have a good day (: