Selfharm/depressed/Dark poems

Part 11

-"A world so full of hate, people would rather die than be who they are" -Same Love

-One pill, two pills, three pills, four.

five cuts, six cuts, seven cuts, more.

Im a stupid, fat, worthless bore.

How much longer, til im dead on the floor?

-Im so tired.

Im tired of being ugly,

Im tired of being fat,

Im tired of being worthless

Im tired of not being good enough,

Im tired of being stupid,

Im tired of crying myself to sleep,

Im tired of..life.

-They tell me they'll always be there for me, but when im screaming at the top of my lungs, they're suddenly deaf.

-My problem is; i find any reason to start cutting again.

-She is my smiling , laughing, joking around,

but look into her eyes is that really happiness you see?

-You think damaged people are the weakest? you would be wrong, they're the strongest people you'll meet cause they know they can survive.

So.. im slowly (baby steps) getting better, which is good, i went a whole day in a half without thinking about cutting or suicide (: thats big for me :3
but yenno what no matter how hard life gets, stay strong! ♡♥♡ its okay to break but remember to put yourself back together <3