Her Calling

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camila cabello, i have questions.

I couldn't breathe, I felt as though the walls were closing in on me. I wanted to kick and scream and break down every wall until I found him. Found him and wrung his neck, how could he do this to me?

I know he knows we're mates, I know he knows what we have is real and cannot be erased, why is he doing this? Are they making him do it?

I sobbed harder, drenching my brothers' shirt even more. The grey material becoming darker and the darkness spreading like the pain in my heart.

It was overwhelming, like a cardiac migraine.

It's only once I began shaking that he started to speak up, "Lerato, you have to calm down. You're going to put your wolf in a frenzy."

I couldn't stop though, I was so weak. I was in over my head, thinking I could be mated to a Royal, of course, they wouldn't follow the rules and would want one of their own. He probably grew up with her and knew her for years.

The baker, sure enough, looked like he knew them both, that day at the bakery within their city. The first time I had seen Madeline, her caramel skin, straight white teeth and bone straight black hair re-imprinting itself in my mind.

Could Royals reject the bond from their side only? But if they could just pick up any girl and claim she was their mate, then Lonwabo could have done the same thing and had pups. But he didn't... If it's so easy to dispose of real mates why did he let himself suffer?

None of this made any sense to me, I was one hundred percent tapped out and one hundred percent exhausted. Most of all, I felt heartbroken and defeated.

Betrayed, too.

Tears still leaking from my eyes, I moved away from my brothers' soaking shirt and took a deep breath, "I'm okay." I announced.

My whole body ached, my heart shattered but I plastered a smile on my face, only Goddess knows why. These are the two people who know me the most in the world, they definitely know a fake smile when they see one.

"No you aren't and that's okay. We aren't going to judge you, you know this." Amanda offered up.

"Amanda caught me up, I'm sorry sis. I don't know what we can do, maybe Pa can set up a meeting? I know he wouldn't let this go though. You are our rightful Queen."

I looked up at my brother, tears still brimming my eyes but no longer slipping down, "I don't want that. It would cause a scene and only put my rejection on blast. I would much rather like to take my L in silence."

"Now's not the time to let your pride get in the way Lerato."

"Anathi, I'm not telling a soul and neither are you." I snap.

How dare he tell me about pride, does he know how mean, rude and ruthless the world, let alone the werewolf community can be? I'd turn into a joke in mere minutes, my real life emotions cast aside as I'm made the bud of every joke, the poster girl for every meme.

The internet would be my personal hell, not mentioning the fact that it already would be. From this day forth I'll have to deal with my timelines being covered with information of the Royal couple.

Imagine adding my embarrassment on top of that. No fucking thanks.

"Sorry," He sighed, "I just – I don't want to see you like this Lera, this isn't how finding your mate should be like."

But it wasn't, besides our actual meeting, it was magical. It was everything I imagined, he was more than I could have ever asked for.

He made me feel, he made me happy, he brought something out of me that I never knew existed. He made me whole. Every day spent with him was better than the last.