Reid's Secret Life

The unexpected

Reids POV I woke up , hoping that Gary was next to me. Of course, he wasn't. I sighed and got out of bed. I quietly walked out of the room and went to the front lounge. Gary was asleep, on top of Brian. I was disturbed by the scene. I looked away, and went to the refrigerator. I got the milk out, and went to see if he had cereal. He did, and my favorite kind too, surprisingly. I got a bowl of the cereal, poured as much milk as I needed, got a spoon and went to the back room. I sat on the bed and ate. When I was done, I put the bowl to the side and snuggled up to Isabelle. She woke up. "Sorry, I wasn't trying to wake you." "It's OK. I felt you get out of bed earlier, so I've been awake for a while." "OK. I didn't bring anything for you to eat, and I don't want to go back out there." "Why?" "Because, I didn't like what I saw." "What is that?" "I can't explain. All I know, is that you don't want to go out there either." "I don't plan on getting up." "OK. Is everything OK?" "Yeah, just exhausted. I need to get some prenatal vitamins, and start taking them. I have no energy at all." "I'll get you some, when we stop." "OK." She started dozing off. I let her go back to sleep, and I held her close.

*Two hours later* Gary's POV. I felt Brian move, and it woke me up. "You OK love?" "Yeah, I'm not use to you sleeping on me anymore. Its been a while." "I know, but it's hard to fit two people on a small couch." "You could've sent Reid to his bunk and we could've been sleeping in the back." "Yeah, well he was asleep, I didn't want to wake him." "I know, but it would've been more comfortable." "I know Brian. Look, we'll make this work, just give it time, OK?" "I will. I'm just sore, I'm not use to laying on my back so long." "Yeah, and I use to be skinny too." "Yeah, but I don't care about that, I rather know that you have eaten, then to know you've been starving. You weren't skinny in a good way. Not for the longest time, at least." I sighed. I hated my life back then. I still hate it sometimes, but not as much as I use to. "Can you please not bring up my past." "I'm sorry love. I'll shut up." "You don't have to shut up, just don't bring up my past." "I won't. I'm sorry I did. I don't know why I keep doing that." "Cause, you want me to be more open about it, but I can't. It hurts, a lot." "I know baby. Just relax, I'll stop bringing it up." "OK. I should probably go check on Reid." "I'll stay here. I'm too stiff to move." OK." I gave him a quick kiss, got dressed, and went to check on Reid. I quietly opened the door and saw he was awake, holding Isabelle close to him. I bit my lip nervously, and walked in the room. "Hey sweetheart, how long have you been awake?" He looked at me, with hurt in his eyes. Did I do something wrong? "I've been awake longer than you have." He said in a mean way. "Whats wrong?" "I saw you asleep on Brian. I was very disturbed." I turned red, in embarrassment. "I'm sorry Reid. That wasn't meant for you to see." "Yeah, well, it's a little too late for that. If you want your back room back, I'll go to my bunk. I just never want to see that again." I sighed. I wasn't sure what to say. I was embarrassed about this. I walked up to Reid and sat on the edge of the bed. He wouldn't look at me. He just looked at Isabelle and rubbed her hair. "I'm sorry Reid. It might be best, if I get the back room back. It's safer for you, and us." He sighed. "OK . I'll take Isabelle to our bunk, and stay there with her." "OK. I love you Reid. I really do." He looked at me when I said that. "I love you too Gary. But, I know you love Brian more." "I love both of you the same way. Just one I can do more with then the other." Reid blushed and looked away from me. Why did he blush? I wasn't talking about him. "Reid, are you OK?" "I'm fine, just go back to your boyfriend." I wanted to correct him, but I figured it was best to stay quiet. I walked back to the front lounge and couldn't stop wondering why he blushed. Maybe from embarrassment, I wasn't sure, but I'll find out later. "Is everything OK love?" Brian asked, as I walk into the room. "Everything's fine. Just got something on my mind." "Want to tell me?" "Not right now, no. Not till I figure it out." "OK." I didn't even realize that Brian was sitting up, until I sat down next to him. "How long have you been sitting up?" "For a few minutes. I had to stretch out some, but it hurt like hell. But, I'm fine now. I had to sit up. If I didn't, I think I would've end up paralyzed." I giggled at that. He's so dramatic. "You really want to laugh at me?" He said, in a playful way. "Who, me? I would never laugh at you, just at you being dramatic, thats all." "Oh really? I guess I'll have to make you laugh till you pee yourself." "No, it's OK, really." I said seriously. He knows I hate it when that happens. I've been bullied and picked on for it. But, it's not my fault. It's my Mom and Brothers fault. They did this to me. "You know I was just kidding, right?" He says in a low, but serious way. "I know, I'm just embarrassed about that, and you know that." "I know I do, and I'm sorry. I was just playing around with you. I didn't mean it literally." "It's OK. I know. It's just some things you can't mess around with me, especially if it has to do with my past." "OK, I'm sorry, I wont say it again." "OK." A few minutes later, Reid came in the room. "At least you aren't on top of him." He says quietly, but I heard what he said. He looked pissed off, and I wasn't sure why. I just rolled my eyes. I will talk to him about this later. I looked at Brian, he must have heard what he said, cause he looked shocked and hurt. I looked back at Reid. "Reid, can I talk to you for a minute?" "About what? Cause, I have nothing to talk to you about." He took off back to the back room. I could feel the anger rising. I walked after him, and stopped him from closing the door in my face. "That was uncalled for, what you said. It hurt Brian's feelings." "I don't care, I'm hurt by the lack of attention you've been giving me. You've been with him more than me." "You've been sleeping a lot. That's why, and you need to stop with your jealousy. I will not tolerate it." "And I will not tolerate him taking you from me!" "What do you mean? He's not taking me from you." "Yes, he is. He's taking your attention from me, to him, and I can't even have you for one minute." I walked up to him and sat next to him. I pulled him close to me and rubbed his arm. "Is there something that you want to tell me? Like, why you've been acting like this?" "Not really. It's not something I talked about, not even to Isabelle." "You can tell me anything, I wont tell." "Promise?" "Yes, I promise." He sighed. "Fine, but you can't tell Brian either." "I won't. I promise." "OK. I may have more than one reason, why I want you with me." "I'm listening." "Well, one, you care about me, and love me the way no one has, except Isabelle, but, thats besides the point. Two, you are the only person who was brave enough to take me from my Dad, no matter what." "Yeah, well, I had to, and you know why." "Yeah. Anyways, I know you've mentioned about adopting me, but, I'm not sure that's what I want." "Why?" "Cause, I.. I dont." "Tell me why. I know there's a reason." "Yeah, well, I'm kind of embarrassed about it, but you'd understand why I'm jealous of Brian." I thought about it for a minute. He can't possibly like me, can he? "Why?" "Think about it. Why do you think I blushed earlier? I knew you were talking about Brian, and what you meant." I sighed. I knew it was true. He liked me, in a way he shouldn't. "I'm sorry Reid. But, I'm not sure what to do about this." "Just, don't tell anyone, OK?" "OK. I love you Reid." "I love you too Gary." I got up and went back to the front lounge. "Is everything OK?" Brian asked. "Yes, everything is good." "What was his problem, why did he say what he did?" "He saw me asleep on top of you this morning, and he got jealous. He thinks your taking his attention, from me, away." "Of course he does. I think it's best if I just go home. He really hurt my feelings, and I won't keep dealing with this. I'm sorry Gary." "No Brian. You are not going home, you are staying here. He will get over this, just give him time, please." "Fine. But, one week is all I'm giving him." "I don't think that's enough time, but OK." "Why is he so jealous of me?" "I can't say, I promised that I wouldn't tell anyone." "You've got to be kidding me." "I'm not. I'm sorry Brian." "It's fine. But, I will get you to tell me later." "Yeah, yeah. Whatever." I hate keeping secrets from Brian, but, I promised Reid I wouldn't tell anyone about this, and that's all I thought about for the next two hours. I wasn't sure what to do about this. Do I tell Brian? Or give Reid what he wants? Or do nothing about it? I was so confused about this. I didn't know what to do. Brian and I were cuddled up on the couch, watching a movie, but I couldn't focus on the movie. My mind was in other places. Eventually I couldn't handle this anymore, I need to talk to Reid about this. "I'll be back, I need to go talk to Reid." I said. "OK." I got up and went to the back room. I opened the door, walked in, and closed the door. Reid was still laying down, but he was awake. "May I talk to you for a minute?" "Sure." I crawled in bed with him, got under the blankets and held him close. "Have you always had an interest in guys?" "No. Sometimes, maybe, but not all the time." "So you're Bi?" "Yeah, I've known for a while. I just never told anyone, and I try not to let it show, but it's not easy." "I know how that is." "I know you are too." "Yeah, I know, but it's not easy for me telling anyone about it either. You're the only one I told." "Yeah, same here. You're the only person I want, to know about this. No one else." "OK, I won't tell. I promise." "OK." He turned on his side, facing me, and snuggled into me. I just realized that he hardly had any clothes on. It freaked me out, but I didn't show it. I just laid still, and held him close to me. He slipped his hand under my shirt and rubbed my chest. "Reid what are you doing?" I asked, panicked. "Nothing. Just rubbing your chest." I knew that wasn't the exact truth. He wanted me. But, I can't do that to Brian. It's not right. My heart started beating faster. I tried to control myself, but I couldn't. I know I should stop him, but I couldn't. I couldn't move, or speak. I closed my eyes and was trying to control my breathing. It didn't help when he slid his hand down my pants. I had to get him to stop. He was driving me insane. "Reid, please stop." I said, out of breath. "Why?" "Cause, it's not right." "So? I want you." "I know you do. But, I can't do this to Brian. I'm sorry." Of course, he didn't listen. He crawled on top of me and pinned my arms down. I whined to myself. What did I get myself into? "Reid, please don't do this. You don't know what you're doing to me." He didn't say anything, he just looked at me. "I do know what I'm doing." "No you don't, not to me, at least." "What are you talking about?" "You know nothing about me. You have no rights doing this to me. Let me go." "No. Not till I get what I want." "Don't do this, or else I will be forced to tell Brian about this." He sighed. I thought he would get off me, but he didn't. Instead, he kissed me, hard. I tried to pull away, but couldn't. I was being forced to let this happen. He has no idea what this will do to me later. He pulled away and took my shirt off. Then, started kissing me again. I refused to kiss him back. I kept trying to pull away from him, but failed every time. I couldn't turn away either. He wouldn't let me. I whined. I really didn't want to be put through this again. I've dealt with it enough in my childhood, but I don't want to have to deal with it now. "Reid, I'm begging you, please don't do this." "Why won't you shut up?" "I don't want to go through this, OK? Just let me go." "No. You will put up with me." "No, I won't. Isn't this something your Dad would do to you?" He looked shocked, but it turned to anger real quick. "Does it matter? I want you, and I will get what I want." "You do this to me, and I will tell Brian." "No you won't. I'll make sure of it." I rolled my eyes. He's starting to act like his Dad, and that's scary. He completely undressed me and then undressed himself. Even though it wasn't much to take off. He forced himself in me, and went at it as hard as he could. I bit my lip to keep myself from moaning and to keep from screaming in pain. The more it hurt, the more I arched my back. Which didn't help his situation. He would go in further, and I would nearly moan out loud from the pain. The further he went in, the faster his pace got. I don't think I can contain my moan any longer. He was getting closer to my sweet spot, and was making it very hard on me. My breath started to quicken, and I could tell I was getting real close to cumming. "Reid, please stop." I said, trying not to let out a moan. He wouldn't listen. He would quicken his pace, and kiss me hard. I couldn't control it any longer. I let out a loud moan, and came. Reid came in me, right when I came. He laid down on top of me, and let go of my arms. I have been defeated, and wasn't proud of it. "I hope you are satisfied." I said, in a hurt way. I will never be able to forgive him for this. He didn't say anything. I looked at him, and saw he had fallen asleep. I sighed. I have to tell Brian about this, or I will end up in my depressed stage. If I haven't gone there already. I pulled Reid off of me and got myself dressed. I walked out the room, but didn't make it very far. I fell to the floor in pain. Brian must have heard me fall, cause he came up to me. "Are you OK?" He asked worried. I shook my head no. He gently picked me up and carried me to the front lounge. He laid me down on the couch and knelt down next to me. "What's wrong?" I couldn't speak. I was in too much pain. He went to the Cabinets and got the bottle of Aleve, and a bottle of water. He gave me two pills and handed me the water. I took the pills and drank the whole bottle of water. He took the bottle from me, knelt back down next to me, and rubbed my hair. "What happened love? Please tell me." I took a deep breath and tried to bring myself to tell him what happened. "You know how I went to talk to Reid, right?" "Yes." "Well, that was a mistake. He raped me." "What?!" He said, pissed off. I knew that would piss him off, but I couldn't keep this from him. He shot up and stormed to the back. "Don't hurt him Brian!" I yelled after him. "We'll see about that!"