"Girl I told you what is was, I let you know" - Pnb Rock
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Xodia Welsher
Date : A random day in November
Pov : 1stJournal Entry #7
Be bold ,
Be bold,
Is what I keep telling myself,
How can I be bold when,
This man has me in his palms,
I feel as a toy,
Perhaps a game,
Yet I still try to be bold,
My book,
My most prized possession,
He ... He has it,
Underline he,
He,
Him,His,
History,
All male pronouns,
His story ,
That book is my story,
Yet he has it,
Always he,
Never she,
Even in all female pronouns,
He is mentioned,
Her,
She,
Hers,
Female,
Woman,
I will change that,
I will be bold,
But,
Being bold,
Being bold takes a undying strength,
I simply do not have,
But,
I will not feed in,
But,
Perhaps I must,
So many decisions but I'm still left,
With one thought,
The only materialist thing,
I care for is gone,
And in his hands,
Is it worth loving a monster,
Is it worth losing my pride,
He's ripping me apart from the inside
Out,
Do I feed in or stand my ground,
I do not know but one things,
For certain,
No matter what rises,
There will always be a crash and burn,
Journal entry over
I slam my laptop shut. My journal entries normally flow , but since he took my book somethings missing. He seems to be the only thing on my mind, yet I'm forcing myself to hate him. I convince myself I don't want anything to do with him yet I still feed in. Is a book about all my undying fantasies for him worth it ? I'm his Ecstasy nothing he wants from me is real. I stand up off my bed and start pacing.
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