pon·der
ˈpändər/
verb
think about (something) carefully, especially before making a decision or reaching a conclusion.
every human being starts to see the world
from there own point of view
at a certain age
i was a young girl who was thirteen
that's when i really started to think
and wonder around
i started to ponder my thoughts
i taking in the world that surrounded me
as i walked through the park
then i started to watch outside my car window
when my dad drove my family downtown
i started to ask questions
that were unanswerable
it was like looking through a telescope
i was dissecting the world bit by bit
i wanted to know everything about it
but i was much to young to know everything
so i listed the good things in life
and the frightening
the world frightened me
i started to notice the people dying
or getting killed on the news
i started to be aware of the guys walking behind me
i started taking in the people that were up to no good
i stopped watching the news
because it gave me nightmares
that were reality so it just frightened me more
nightmares that are real
is probably the scariest thing for a thirteen year old girl
i started to look at flowers and plants
i started to see how beautiful they were
so i filled my room with plants
but eventually they died
i wished i could be wrapped in flowers
maybe then i would be beautiful
i wished daisies could be tangled in my hair
while wild flowers would go around my rib cage
i wished that tall ivy would grow up my legs
it sounds odd
but all i wanted to be was a flower
my consumption about that world was that
it basically sucks
but people should focus on the good things in life
because one day we will all die
and i know no one would want to die
thinking about bad things
so focus on the good things
but then again i was just pondering
at the fragile age of thirteen
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this is us
Short Storywe hold hands but never for too long we kiss but never in public he doesn't want to become one of those couples he just wants to be us so this is us •••••••••••••••• [lowercase intentional]