The Program

Chapter 27

Chapter 27 - ''I'll take my chances''

Levy McGarden

After waiting it out for a couple of days, I finally gathered the courage to ask Romeo for advice like I intended to. The whole ordeal has been weighing heavily on my mind as my feelings continued to stray further away from Lucy and latching onto the possibility of Gajeel liking me.

Anon69: so

Anon69: what's up, lev-bear?

Reading Romeo's private message, a lump slowly formed in my throat. I was sort of nervous what he would think of all this. But I know Romeo, he doesn't judge anyone. He believes no one has the right to.

BookLover923: A lot. I've been meaning to talk to you about something

BookLover923: It's been really messing with my head

Anon69: go ahead then

Anon69: tell me 

BookLover923: I just..

BookLover923: You remember what I said before about Lulu?

Anon69: the bi-curious thing?

BookLover923: Yes

Anon69: ye

Anon69: what about it

BookLover923: It's just that

BookLover923: She has a boyfriend. But I don't feel anything

BookLover923: I actually have no problem with it

BookLover923: I'm genuinely happy for her and I like her boyfriend, he's a super funny and extremely friendly

BookLover923: Shouldn't it be different if I actually felt anything towards her?

Watching the bubble that indicated that Romeo was typing made my stomach churn. I didn't know what to expect. 

Anon69: definitely. if u liked her, u would be jealous

Anon69: it's highly possible that maybe u just thought she was hot. nothing wrong with that. doesn't mean you're into girls

Anon69: you can think someone is attractive without being attracted to them, if that makes sense

Anon69: i think you're beautiful. doesn't mean i like u. i also think Gajeel is handsome. doesn't mean i'd suck his dick

Anon69: my point is, maybe you just got confused 

Anon69: and that's normal too

Reading all of what he said, it clicked. I felt like I genuinely could connect with it. He's probably right. Maybe, I was never into Lucy in the first place. She's one of my best friends now. I think that's all she ever was to me.

But what still didn't make sense to me is the fact that I was having sexual thoughts about her. A straight person wouldn't ever see another of their gender in that light, right?

BookLover923: I think that you're right. Still, I had some pretty inappropriate thoughts

BookLover923: And I was always checking her out