Basketball Love Affair 4: Jump Ball

Chapter 10: Always.

Chapter 10: Always.

Dominique's POV:

**Eight days ago.

"I know, you're scared. I'm scared too."

 

Chris pat my back as I cry my self out. Oo natatakot ako. I'm damn scared to admit it. To admit that I like my best friend, siguro matagal ko ng tinatanggi na gusto ko si Jhester. Tinatanggi ko palagi, na bago ko pa ipasok sa isip ko yung ideya na maaaring kaya ko ginagawa ang mga bagay na ginagawa ko para sakanya ay idinadahilan ko na lang sa sarili ko na best friend ko siya.

 

I've been pointing to myself that Jhester is just my friend. I've been pointing out to people that he's only my bestfriend.

 

Because I'm scared to admit that since the day he saved me from drowning, nagkagusto na ako sakanya, I'm just too in denial to see all the signs.

 

And now because of being scared with that fact. I've done worst, I fell in love with him.

 

"I can't. I can't love him, Chris."

"You sure can. You can and you did. You can't take control on who you'll like. No one's in control of that."

 

Kinalas niya ang pagkakayakap sakin at hinawakan ako sa magkabilang pisngi, pinagtagpo niya ang aming mata, "I can't possibly love someone who only think of me only as a friend."

"Yeah, you both know that."

"Ano?"

 

Natatawang umiling siya at lumayo sa'kin, "You're unbelievable, Dominique."

"Ano?"

"You're really clueless." Saad niya na para bang hindi makapaniwala sa nakikita niya, "He's screaming it to the whole world. Lahat ng tao narinig na, pero ikaw hindi pa din? Hindi ko alam kung bingi ka ba o nagbibingi-bingihan eh."

"Hindi... Hindi kita maintindihan."

 

Naupo siya sa pwesto namin kanina at uminom ng tubig na nandon, "No. I will not tell you. I will let you hear and understand it yourself. I'm not selfless enough para ibigay pa lahat ng hawak kong baraha sa kalaban ko. Malay mo, I still have a chance in winning."

 

Ang gulo niya. Para siyang nagtatanong ng isang komplikadong math problem, it's like he's asking for a way to save a person who's brain dead. Tricky and complicated. Math error, cannot be answered.

 

Saglit na natahimik kami parehas when he drop the subject from before and change the topic, "You love him?"

 

Hindi ako sumagot. Still hasn't sink in to me, "I can help you."

"What?"

"Why? Are you not planning on telling him your feelings."

"I.. I won't. Masisira ang pagkakaibigan namin."