stray kids imagines

chan

- angst

- tw: unplanned pregnancy, father leaves

03/08/21 editing me: this is so........cringe oh my god. this was written in 2018 pls cut me some slacks.

i held the positive pregnancy test in my hands while shaking with nervousness

how will i tell chan about this? what will happen? how will he react? i'm not ready to have a kid. we're still young and he's just getting started on his career. if anyone finds out, then his future could be ruined

i heard the front door opened and tons of laughters can be heard

they're home

chan opened the door to our shared bedroom and peeked his head inside

"hey. what you doing?" he asked me as he walked in our room

"oh h-hi chan. nothing. i'm doing nothing. i'm perfectly fine. there's nothing wrong" i said nervously while letting out a soft chuckle at the end, trying to make it seem convincing

chan has a good pair of eyes and he saw what i was holding in my hand

"what's that?" he asked as he tried to reach for it

"n-nothing," i said as i tried to hide it

he was able to grab it before i could've successfully hid it

"y-you're pregnant?" he asked with wide eyes as he started at the pregnant test

"y-yea..." i said with a nervous smile

"i'm s-sorry. i can't do this," he quickly said as he gave me back the test and ran outside

i immediately burst out into tears when i found out he wasn't able to take care of the kid

since chan can't do this, then i have no choice other than to take care of this kid myself

5 yrs later

i held onto chanmin's hand as we were walking through the park

as we were walking, my eyes landed on the one person i never wanted to see in my life again

bang chan

our eyes met and i quickly broke contact

i picked up chanmin and quickly walked out of the park

i can hear the footsteps behind me and i know for sure that those footsteps belonged to chan

he grabbed onto my shoulder and spun me around

"y/n...i-i miss you" he said to me and i can still hear that aussie accent of his

"i'm sorry about what i did. i regret leaving you alone. you had to go through this pregnancy alone and i'm so sorry" he said as tears started swelling inside of his eyes

chanmin just looked at the both of us with questioning eyes

"well i'm sorry, but i can't forgive you. when you walked out on us that day, you walked out of mine's and chanmin's life forever. goodbye bang chan"

a/n: this wasn't sad enough...well for me it wasn't. idk abt u guys. and it was hard for me to do this chapter bc i can't imagine chan, or any of them, to do this bc they seem like such nice and precious angels