Dear diary
i cant stop crying.... He broke up with me i feel soo lost i cant stop crying, it hurts i loved hium dearly and he has hurt me i dunno what to do anymore.... i cry my self to sleep everynight i hold the braclet in my arms and cry my self to sleep, i awke in the morning wishing it was all a dream... wishing i could of done more, its all my fault he said i dont make him happy :'(
im crying now diary just thinking about him i cant stop ive not eaten.. ive not stopped shaking i just want to collaps, dan called me up last night telling me how its going to be all ok but in reality its not gunna be alright, i dont think it ever will diary i really dont i wouldnt even mind but im sat crying on a sofa in my cousins house in coventry and i have to stay stong.... but how can i when i feel like my hear has been torn right out of my chest.
who is going to text me in the mornings telling me that i mean everything to them, telling me im perfect mwhat is there to wake up to what is there to smile about all i can do is cry and cry and cry and he doesnt even care thats the worsed part...... he doesnt realise how much i love him he thinks i can do better but i cant, he is all that made me smile in the mornings make me want to wake up he is the one that made me feel at ease he knows how i suffer with, bi polar and im 15 im a 15 year old girl with nothing left to love, i feel soo washed up and lonly...
im depressed diary i have no one to talk to he changed my life now my life has came crashing down ontop of me and what do i have left :'( nothing left of e i cant stop crying :'( he is all ive ever wanted people ask me am i ok.... well i say i am and smile but behind that smile there is a hurt girl a girl with nothing left and now what do i do diary :'( im not religious but you know what ive been doing ive been praying that the pain will go away i pray that i stop huting inside :'( i feel sick and i dunno what to do :'(
well i best goo not diary :( thankyou for listening to me....
you mayy off just saved my life diary.....
x x x Lauren x x x
