Dear diary,
this has been the worst day of my life :S i mean being cheated on by some guy i thought loved me is just soo shit..... i feel soo worthless my mom and dad dont understand, i dont think they ever will, this is why i sit in my bed room everyday at 10pm talking to my lap top WOW!!!...... i really need to get a life, find someone who truly loves me and understands me, as you can see my fucked up freinds just treat me like shit, some friends they are right?
DAYUUMMM, its a saturday and there is fuck all for me to do tomorrow, YAWN!!! soo boring and now im listening to bullet for my valentine sat on my bed eating ben and jerrys ice cream, mmmmmmmm cookiee DOUGHHH!!!. Life is shit got to wake up at 9am to go football which doesnt start untill like 11.... WHY SOO EARLYY!! no idea.....
FOOTBALLL!!! is like one offf my hobbies as you already know as ive said plenty of times that 90mins every sunday practise on a thursday yep thats mee :) i love my sprots i say fuck boys or girls and play football and listen to music thats sounds like a plan :)) busy busy busy BLEHH BLEHH BLEHH..... what to doo diary, no cluee?? i mean i like someone.. but do they like me?
id say that he doesnt but hayy who knows.... his name is Nile Brooks we met at some party thing called Pop Bubble Rock WOW!! he is just BEAUTIFUL!! Yepp he is taken all the best ones are...... he is with this guy called Reece and Reece dont get me wrong, he is a BABE!!!.... they are ment for each other and the last thing they need is for me to barge in soo ill leave that one out... *Sigh* Itss all quiet mom and dad are asleep downstairs after 2 bottles of wine each aimee is at her mates and im here, all alone :'( wish i had someone to make me feel special well diary what is their else to say really..... apart from life at this point is rather shit, its horrid being a depressed little 14 year old wish i could be... you know!! one of the popular people i only have 342 friends on facebook, THATS SOO SHIT!!! their are peopkle with 4000 WOW!! i sound soo pathetic.... LOL!!
"i can see it as you turn to stone, Still clearly i can hear you say, dont leave dont give up on me two weeks since you ran away, i remember dont lie to me, i couldnt see it, it was not that way, swear id never give uip on you" I LOVE THAT SONG, ALL THAT REMAINS!!! but in a way i hate it, because of my ex i love him i do but i can never truly forgive him for ewhat he did to me, He cheated on me yep he did with 2 people wow...... HURT MUCH!!.
well im gunna head off not diary... thankyou for being such a good listener.
Thankyou for saving my life....
Lauren ...... <3
