Marriage with Benefits - COMPLETED

65: Unanswered

Alyx's POV

Napasabunot na lang ako sa sarili ko pag bangon. Seriously Alyx? What did you just do? Shit! Utak. Utak please.

I close my eyes and lets out a deep breathe. Baka panaginip lang to? Hindi to totoo. Hindi pwede. Jusko!!!

Dahan dahan kong minulat ang mga mata ko at nilingon ang katabi ko sa kama.

I cover my face with the duvet and silently shout.

OMG! OMG! OMG! Totoo nga. I-- with -- MIKKO!!! Shit. Shit. Shit.

He's deeply sleeping so I grabbed the chance get off the bed and pick up my clothes.

At that was the fastest time I get in my clothes.

I was silently walking out. I stopped as I breathed in the scent of the room. And I look around. It still smell like him. Walang nagbago na kahit ano. It's still the same. It's still our room. Ganito ko to iniwan. Ganitong-ganito pa rin ang lahat.

I snap on my reverie and walks out.

This just feels so surreal. Me,here inside his house. And it still felt like home.

Ghad. Seriously Alyx? Saka mo lang nagawang tingnan ang paligid mo ngayong palabas ka na? What? You were so busy making out,hindi mo na naintindihan ang pinasok mo. Jusko ka self.

'Hey?' Ayy shit! 'Alis ka?'

'Uuwi na ko Mikko. Baka hinahanap na ko ni Nanay.' sagot ko habang naglalakad palayo sakanya.

'I called her. Sabi ko you're with me. Andun naman si Manang Fe,I instruct her na tawagan ako agad if something happens.'

Nilingon ko sya. But I can't look straightly at him.

Ang awkward!! Bwisit!!!

'Baby?'

'Mikko. Ugh,kailangan ko kasi talaga umuwi. Medyo maaga pa naman,kaya pa.'

'Stay. Please?'

Nagkunwari na lang ako na walang narinig. I run on his frontdoor. Pero bago pa ako makalabas naabutan nya ako. He's pinning me at the back of the door.

I bit my lip and look away.

I can't met his gaze. Pero randam na randam ko yung intense ng titig nya na parang gusto akong tunawin.

'Did I misunderstood this? God Alyx,did I cross the line? Did I step out of my limit?' he sound so scared. 'I'm so sorry. I didn't mean too. Please don't go.'

I look up at him and he looks so frightened.

I touched his face and he closes his eyes as he leans on my hand.

Why Mikko? You look so vulnerable.

'Mikko,no. Wala kang ginawang masama. I just felt--ahmm ewan. I'm sorry,pakiramdam ko lang kasi it's not right. Baka masyado tayong nagpadala sa mga emosyon natin.'

'You regret it?'

'Look at me.' Jusko,anong nangyari sa taong to? Bakit ang sensitive nito masyado?

'Hmm?' he met my gaze and I badly want to wash away all the worries in his eyes.

'I don't. I don't regret it. Ano lang kasi? Parang everything happens so fast. Mikko,can we take this one step at a time? Aaminin ko andun pa rin yung takot ko being this close to you. And I am trying really hard. Kaso we were rushing on it again. Didn't we agree
that we'll be friends muna? Sisimulan natin to ng maayos diba? We'll make it right this time diba?'