LET'S KEEP IT A SECRET

Chapter 11- confession

Do you suddenly get the feeling that maybe, maybe there is someone right outside the window that actually cares and worries about
you? Like a stranger? Wait, that sounded creepy. After I opened up to GD, I kind of felt like I'm not alone. I don't really know
how to explain it but it's like you get this feelings your friends can't give you, yeah they can give you happiness and those
kinds of feelings but with GD, I feel complete. A whole person.

"I think I'm falling in love with you all over again."

I said as I stare at him. Our eyes locked on to each other. Our hearts beating a lot faster than usual. Our breath stops for a
while as we take both take in the sentence I've said. The phrase that will turn our lives upside down. 

"I think I'm feeling the same thing."

He said it like it was something he has been practicing for months. He sounded confident. He probably knew I was in love with him
long before we met, because seriously, who wouldn't fall in love with this guy?

"Why does that make me much more sadder than before? It feels like a dream and I think I am about to wake up."

Tears flow down through my cheeks as he cupped my chin and said,

"Then if this is a dream, I won't let you wake up."

He pulled me in closer. Closer, that I can feel my heartbeat trying to escape my chest. I can feel his breath now and I'm scared
he might hear the sound of my heart beating for him. I hope this isn't a dream. I don't want to hope any further. I want this
moment to last an eternity.

And that's when I felt his lips. His hands slowly getting up to my cheek. I can feel his wet hands, probably from the tears he
wiped. I slowly closed my eyes and let the moment sink in through my body. How far have we gone to be able to do this? He broke
away from the kiss and let our foreheads touch.

"I love you Dara."

He closed his eyes and smiled.

"I love you too GD."

I placed my hands on his cheeks and pinched it as hard as I can. We both laughed as we held each other's faces like we're about
to swap them. This feels good. This feeling, I want to keep it for as long as I can. I want to able to be by his side for as
long as time can give me.

"Oh, don't call me GD anymore. Jiyong is fine."

He placed his hands on my head and ruffled my hair. I probably look like a witch now. I can see his face, holding his laughter.
It looks so funny! I got up and went to the bathroom to look at my messed up hair. It's worse than a witch! I laughed out loud
and held my stomach as I can't contain this laughter anymore.

"Oh, I have to go now. I'll be with Choi Seunghyun until 11 pm. I'll see you tomorrow? If you're alright by then?"

I smiled and nodded. He got up from the bed and headed to the door.

"Are you happy?"

He asked as he held the door knob and twist it.

"More than ever."

I smiled for the nth time and he did too. He mouthed 'I love you' and shut the door close.

This feeling I am feeling right now is a whole lot different to what I am used to. I feel like i'm in a beach with white sand
and crystal clear water. This feels like paradise. I want to be able to tell thisto Chaerin without getting scared. I'm still
scared that she might ruin our relationship hehe. Anyway, I plan on getting better. I want to see him again with the same
reaction as he had today. I want to make him smile and smile and smile until he realizes how much I love him. So much for a
fangirl. I'm glad I became his fan.