Underneath

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Underneath

My mouth says I’m happy, I’m smiling right? Underneath, I’m hiding a million tears that I can’t explain.

My eyes say I’m hopeful, they’re sparkling right? Underneath, I’ve been drowning myself in hopelessness for years.

My expression says I’m strong, I’m not flinching right? Underneath I’m shaking, living in constant terror of the future.

My words say I’m confident, I’m not stuttering right? Underneath I’m hiding too many insecurities to even count anymore.

My tone says I’m spirited, I’m inspiring right? Underneath I’m trying to get rid of so much pain I can’t even explain everything.

My attitude says I have no regrets, I’m not running away right? Underneath I wish I could get rid of all of my past mistakes.

My face says I’m innocent, I’m not doing anything right? Underneath I’m living in self-disgust of the things that I’ve done.

My work says I have goals, I’m not slacking right? Underneath I’m lost in a wave of confusion that I’ve been in for as long as I can remember.

Now do you get it? Those things on the outside, they’re not real. What’s underneath all of that thick skin, you could never imagine.

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