I wander through the dreary desert
My hands covering up my face
Trying in vain
To shield my eyes
From the burning pain.The sky is a bleary dull grey beige
Sun hidden beneath the massive blanket
Of the scorching sand
Flying with the merciless
gale of wind
A ruthless couple
Hand in hand
Upon a homeless land.Surrounding me
Smothering me
Suffocating me
A closet of doom
And all around my staggering frame
The demonish shadows of my past
The ones I thought I'd left behind
The drops of guilt I thought I'd wiped
away
With their giant, invincible might
Block my hopeless way-
Looks like they're here to stay.And as I trudge through the skyless world
Upon my right with a pang I behold
My uncle
My best friend
And my beloved
My uncle whom
I couldn't lend a moment
A golden, precious moment
To say a two- syllabled word
Before his tube-riddled hand dropped
Onto the sheets below;My best friend whom
I couldn't lend a moment
A smiling, shining moment
To say a two-syllabled word
Before his frame stormed out
And on my face slammed the door;My beloved, oh my beloved;
Whom I couldn't lend a moment
A lovely, lustrous moment
To say a two-syllabled word
As she grabbed my bouquet of
water lillies
My greeting cards
My letters
My gifts
My love
And with a single, powerful motion
Tossed them into the dustbin.Years later;
Tears later
I beheld them all in front of me
Their eyes alight with a painful mixture
Of hope and agony,
Of sorrow and pity,
Demanding
From their nephew, their lover, their best buddy-
A single word of regret.I gathered up in my outstretched palms
The broken shards of my shattered heart
Still glistening with the river I had cried
when each of them had left my life.I cupped my palms with the broken fragments
And in that vast, boundless desert
Fell onto my knees.I pleaded with them to forgive me
I begged, I spawned, I cried-
I threw up every drop of repentance
That lay cooped up insideAnd I don't know if my wretched actions
To their anguished souls appealed
But suddenly they were there no more-
Only I on the sand who kneeled.I looked around the desert barren
My tears by the wind eroded;
Until a Satanic gush of wind
On my journey me goaded.The sand dunes are getting dwarfed by the storm
The shadows are disturbing
Yet on my journey I must move on
Must keep the pages turning.My very mouth is choked with dust-
The last drop of water's gone
So be it my tears that quench my thirst
Come what may, I must on.My mind is blank, my heart is blank-
Feelings were all that remained
And before a while, this imbecile
Had threw up all they contained.I'm beginning to feel an emptiness-
no anger, no love, no strife,
A boundless, bare ocean of sand;
This desert resembles my life.And I wander through this dreary desert-
My hand no longer covers my face
But happily takes the pain,
As I become one with the welcoming sand,
As I leave my dreadful body behind
Its pathetic, ruined remains
Never to be seen again.
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Salt And Ink
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