Silent Mind (z.h)

S I X T E E N

Alright... this chapter is a fucking piece of WHAT THE FUCK... but I hope your feelings will atomatically switch. It is absolutely a torture to your feels...
Ready for a lot of tears and a big mindfuck? Go ahead and read...

I ran and I ran, the road was long but nothing really mattered but the end of it.
I was so lost, so empty… all because of one boy.

It’s hard to explain but the pain inside of me was almost unbearable, the little light of hope I had, was at the end of the long country road.

I got to a wide bridge when I heard how a car came speeding towards me from behind. I only had to guess one time to know who it was, Zayn Malik.

The car passed me and stopped in front of me, blocking the road, blocking the hope.
Zayn stepped out of the car, eyes red in anger.

“Get in the car” He commanded.
I was a few meters away from the beast and I wasn’t going to let him closer.
“You can bring me back a thousand times; I will never stop trying to run away…” I cried and took a tiny step back.

“I will never love you… you are a killer and a stalker and I HATE you” I spat the words out like they were some kind of infection.

“I am not Niall” He simply replied, face motionless.
“Stop lying to me” I hissed back.

The sound of police sirens was heard from over the hill. I had never felt so happy in my life to actually hear safety.

Zayn didn’t seem to be afraid; he only stood there, looking at me.
The police cars came into view, driving towards us. It was so close… I was going to be alright.

The cars stopped behind Zayn’s blocking car and stepped out, guns already aimed.
“Police, get down on the ground” One of the officers yelled.

I looked at Zayn, waiting for him to give in. But he only stood there with sadness in his eyes I had never seen before.

“You with blonde hair, get on the ground!” The officer yelled again, no wait… blonde?
Me?
What?

“No officer you are mistaking” I excused and pointed towards the raven boy.
“Niall, listen to them please” Zayn begged, the sadness never left his eyes.
What was going on?

“I am innocent, he is the murderer!” I was angry now “It’s over Niall…” Zayn sighed.
“Niall… listen to me, please” He said and by the look in his eyes, I felt forced to.

“I am not a killer Niall, I haven’t killed a single person in my life… but you have” Zayn said with a serious face.

What did he say?
His words made me laugh, is this a joke?

“Niall that night you keep telling me I climbed through your window didn’t happen…” Zayn spoke and I suddenly felt my head ache.
“Your mother was killed that way Niall, two years ago… Smothered with a pillow in her sleep”

“You are lying!” I screamed. What was going on? Did the police buy this? My mother was completely fine.
“No Niall… I didn’t kill Chad, Chad wasn’t even your boyfriend, he used to be your stepdad”

What?

“Your stepdad Niall, who abused you… you shot him in the forehead two weeks ago when he tried to rape you” Zayn kept going with these lies. Anger boiled inside of me as I looked at Zayn.

“It’s okay Niall, it’s over…” Zayn tried to sooth me but I wasn’t buying it.

“No! Stop lying! You killed my boyfriend Chad and my best friends!” I cried.
“No Niall, Josh killed himself a year ago, he shot himself in the mouth at prom in front of everybody… I didn’t kill him”

“No… No he danced with a beautiful girl” I sobbed.
“Niall…” Zayn tried but I wasn’t having it. “NO! Harry…! He was in the fire!”
“Ni there was no fire, you set your home on fire five months ago”

My head… the pain!
I was crying hysterically now, why would he come up with a whole story? Hadn’t I suffered enough?

“Please stop” I whimpered and felt my legs start to shake.
“Niall, I love you… but you need help”

Zayn walked up to me slowly, his hands up in defense. He embraced me in a warm hug and shushed me from sobbing. I sunk to my knees, Zayn following me down on the ground.
What was going on? Everything seemed so… painful.

Like I just found out my dog had died or I lost on lottery.
“It’s okay Niall, I’m here” Zayn comforted and caressed my blonde hair with his fingertips.

“But the money and the men that took me… Southman and Mr. Harris… Zayn, you… you raped me”

“I would never hurt you Niall”
I closed my eyes and believed his words… he would never hurt me…

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“My name is Zayn Malik, I am Niall Horan’s fiancé since six months back… I didn’t know he was suffering from schizophrenia, frontal lobe dementia and a mental disorder.

I never knew about his dark past… but I fell in love with him anyway, I fell in love with a nice, caring boy

I met him the first time when we were kids, both of our fathers loved to fish so we joined them.
We became really great friends and grew up together. I never knew he had a rough time at home until his father died.

I told him that I loved him at prom and we danced together, he told me he loved me back…
His mother was killed a few days after, smothered with a pillow by an unknown person.

Another two years passed and I eventually asked him to marry me. He said yes.
Two weeks ago they found Niall’s stepdad on the floor in Niall’s room, dead. Niall was found in an alley with an injured ankle.

The two men Niall keeps talking about is my older brothers Cas and Yural Malik who drove him to the hospital…
He called them by his own middle name Jeff and his father’s middle name Kirk.

Money? There is no money… Niall was hiding a backpack with his medication his doctor Kyle gave him. And Harry? Harry is our dead child…
We had a surrogate mother to give birth to our child and he died during labor. We had already named him… Niall was devastated.

Niall is living in this world where his life is pretty much taken from a movie, he thinks that he is the innocent one and for some reason I am the villain.

It all escalated these recent weeks… he was talking like I really was a killer and he was going to run away from me.

He also did, he took the car and drove to his parents summer house. I followed and comforted him, telling him that I loved him…

We had sex that night, but he now explains it like I raped him.
I just want him to get well again… I want the old Niall back…

Please…”

Omg... I know it's short but this had to be in one episode... I can't write to much information in one chapter. This is enough for your brain I reckon.
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