to forget you

3 ; to remember you

i want the kind of relationship we had.

comfortable silences reading, doing homework, drawing, next to each other.

because it always felt better with you by my side. now i sit in a cold silence. doing homework hurts not only my brain but my heart. I miss you.

I miss hearing your breaths after shakily dialing your number, making all my fears vanish, telling me--

you're alive. i'm alive.

everything is okay.

we walked next to each other, linking arms, and talking about anything and everything.

now I walk alone and the pit in my stomach grows.

i was so intrigued by you because of the feeling you give off. dangerous. like playing with fire. but I couldn't keep away.

or maybe it was because I thought I could save you.

I didn't understand loss like I do now.

I used to be a stranger but now I'm an unwilling companion to demons that once haunted you.

we had a kind of whirlwind romance, the more I think about it. fleeting, and insane.

we were two unlikely people that could never be together yet-there we were.

but like a match in gasoline, we were bound to go up in flames--

you were the spark.