A.N.O.R.E.X.I.A [BxB]

Three.

Dear Toby,

                I have discovered that I like a dance song! It kind of threw me at first because I don’t listen to ‘dupstep’, but for some reason I can listen to this song on repeat. It’s called “Professional Griefers”. The music video is set in the future, so today I thought about my future.

 Whilst my parents would love for me to go to university, I’m not so sure anymore. School is bad enough, and I’m not sure I can deal with the thought of leaving school to study even more. I already have to finish my GCSEs and then do A-Levels; surely that’s enough? But if I did go to university, I think I would study English Literature or Creative Writing.

 I’m not sure about when I would like to “settle-down”. I would definitely like to do some travelling first. One of my goals is to visit every Hard Rock Cafe in America. Or the world. I’m not sure. But I’m not sure when I would like to “settle-down”, because I don’t know who I would like to “settle-down” with. And I don’t mean literally, I mean that I’m unsure as to what type of person I would suit.

 Incidentally, I’ve been doing some research and I think I’ve found my sexuality; pansexual. Basically, if you’re pansexual you can be attracted to men, women and even transgender people. In my opinion everyone should be pansexual, because then everyone can fall in love with anyone and be happy.

 When I do eventually “settle-down”, I would love to have children. I’d have to make sure very early on that my partner is aware of this, however, because I don’t want a reprise of my aunt Lucy’s second marriage; they separated after a week because she didn’t know that her partner hated children. I’m still unsure as to how a person can hate kids, but that is “neither here nor there”. That’s a phrase that my mum uses often when she is discussing aunt Lucy. It’s almost like she reserves the phrase for those occasions.

 If for some reason I am unable to have children, biologically or adopted, I think I would like to have a lot of pets. Not in a “crazy-cat-lady” sense, I just think that it would be fun. I had a hamster called ‘July’ as a child. I named him that because I got him on the 1st of July. Regardless, my cousins left his cage door open and he was never found. I didn’t cry, although my cousins swear I did. I haven’t had a pet since.

 Tomorrow we have English class and I hope to hear you read again.

                Love,
                Jack.