YOU AND ME- Shubman Gill & Devdutt Padikkal ( NOT BL)

CHAPTER 22

Eda POV

Rudra practically dragged me into the bar of the hotel, the music was not really loud it was moderate
Rudra is 4 yrs older than me he is an successful lawyer and an perfect image of gentleman I still remember those days in school when I used to give him love letters and greeting cards given by and class girls or other girl's

We both were best friends more than siblings

After our parents divorce rudra was given to dad and I was under my mother but this didn't effect our relation it is still same as it used to be may be more stronger

" How is mom? I spoke with her she said her health is fine but it's been months since I have met her"Rudra asked sipping his drink

Mom and dad had many differences in their married life but they tried their best to not let that effect the love they have for their kids

"I visited her before coming for this tournament don't worry she is strong women,Why don't you go and visit her, she asks a lot about you"

"I will " rudra said with an hesitation

Rudra has always been an understanding child he loved both mom and dad equally but their is still a place in his heart which aches ' why did mom leave me'

He was hurt badly when he got to know about the divorce but he didn't let anyone know

We both thought that as time passes we will get rid of all those memories but little didn't we knew that there is always an child inside you

The child inside us usually holds on to those sweet memories of our childhood but in our case it was different the child inside us filled with fear, insecurities, trust issues and many more to go

We don't blame our parents for this because of they didn't take divorce at that time things might have got ugly

" How is it going with shubman?" Rudra asked taking me out of my thoughts

" Was it visible?" I asked earning an node from Rudra

" I never realised that my little sister who used pee in her plants while sleeping has grown up and is having an boyfriend" Rudra said while ordering an another glass of drink

" Kids do pee in thier sleep and stop using this against me "

" And he is not my...... boyfriend " my heart felt heavy while saying

" He might not be your boyfriend but you can't deny the fact that you like him a lot ....take a look at your self you look different around him and he loves you "
Rudra sounded confident

" He does but I'm not sure ...I mean I like him rudra but do I love him?"

"How do you feel you about him?"
Rudra asked taking the glass from my hand

" Whenever I'm with him it feels amazing, he makes me feel special, the affort he puts into me makes me feel question myself ' am I perfect for him ' , he is sure an god's favourite child his presence itself is enough for me to feel protected safe secure and....."

" And today when he walked away from me if felt as if a part of mine is walking away from me "

" When he said he loves me I clearly said that I'm not an easy person to be with I have got many insecurities, trust issues and fear about relationships and love ....love is something with I can't do I'm sacred of it but he said that he will be with me he promised to prove me wrong that I can't love and I can't be in an relationship and surprisingly I let him do that "

" If it wasn't for him I'm sure another guy must have ran away from me " I said with an chuckle

" Today just now when I said him to stop trying I could see that he was hurt I hurt him it wasn't intentional I wasn't and do you know the worst part I didn't stop him ......I'm toxic "