I woke up the next day in my bed with my body and head killing me. I asked Cami and Suki to leave so that they could go back to their house and after much insisting I managed to convince them.
I stayed in bed all day, I didn't grab my phone, I didn't eat and I didn't even close my eyes because I was too afraid that the images would reappear in my head.
The next day I decided to take a shower because my whole body felt dirty even though Suki and Cami helped me take a shower the night before. I was unconscious most of the time but I remember bits of it.
Anyway I stood up from the bed and looked at myself in the mirror, my body felt so heavy and gross. I dragged myself to the bathroom and turned on the shower. While the water ran over my body, I grabbed the soap and began to scrub all over. My nails scratched my skin making myself bleed but I just needed to get him off me.
I sobbed uncontrollably taking deep gasps trying to breathe but I just couldn't. I got to grab a towel but shortly after fell to the wet ground with blood in my arms and that's when I realised that my nails were dug very deep into my skin.
Kendalls POV
After Coachella I went back home. I cannot express the regret I felt. I missed everything about her, her smile, her touch, her smell, her laugh, her accent, the talks in bed, listening to music while we cooked, watching movies together. Everything.
I haven't spoken to Ben since that night. I was so drunk and made a stupid decision and all I wanted to explain to Y/n was that I did it out of fear. I know it's stupid, very, very stupid but I was afraid of how much I loved her. I never felt like this for no one and it scared me so much to think that I would die for her, I would leave everything for her and now I screwed it all up.
All these thoughts did not let me sleep and the call I received from my friend Camila Morrone did not help at all.
"Hey Cami," I answered the call. I was laying on my bed trying to take a nap.
"Kendall, don't panic but something happened and..." Cami sounded agitated over the phone so it started to scare me.
"Cam, what's wrong? Did something happen to Y/n?" I said seriously.
"Last night a man did something to her, Kendall. She's not okay"
I sat up on the bed and put my hand on my chest. "Wha- Is she at her house?" I asked.
"Yes, Suki and I were with her yesterday but she begged us to leave so I thought I should call you. I don't know, I'm just- I'm worried"
"I'm going there now" I hung up and got up from the bed. That familiar feeling of panic and anxiety entered my body but I decided to ignore it because I needed to be there for her.
I drove to Y/n's house and opened the door with the keys she had given me.
"Y/n?" I asked, closing the front door. Silence.
"Y/n!" I shouted. I searched all the rooms until I realised that the bathroom door was closed. I knocked twice and after having no response, I entered. I was prepared for everything except for what I found. Y/n was unconscious on the floor wrapped with a white towel covered in blood."Fuck" I felt a stabbing sensation in my chest for a few seconds but my instincts made me ignore it. I turned the shower off and took her out of the wet floor, wrapping her in one of the dry and cleaned towels. "Come here, baby" I started sobbing while hugging her on the floor.
I grabbed more towels and wrapped her bloody arms. The cuts weren't very deep but they were big enough to make her bleed heavily.
"You're okay, you're okay. I'm sorry" I cried, kissing her damp hair.
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Romancekendall jenner & y/n (gxg) hi everyoneeee i'm back after like two years if you're in the mood for some drama this is it. kendall did something bad and now she wants forgiveness, will she get it? read and find out ;) love uuuu