My love
I could never be what you wanted
You wanted something spontaneous
Something Bold
Confident
Content
Things I could never give you
You didn't want somebody that would overthink
I could never fit your image
Yet I still loved you with my entire heart
I wish I knew what you felt
How you felt
I wish you were here
But I know it will never happen
Im too stuck on the past
I need to let go
But i can't
If i do
Ill lose every memory
Of us
Of you
Your warmth
Im still in love
And i hate it
What's wrong with me
Everyone else can let go
But why not me
I cant be an exception
Im average
I cant feel this way forever
Hopefully it'll fade away
And ill be free
Free from this
Having to express my emotions on a page
Rather than talking to a real person
It's honestly sad
Almost pathetic
Having no one to confide in
Not being able to talk to the one person you love
Not being Able to see her everyday
Everyday is empty
Rebounds work
But they're not her
Nor will they ever compare
I miss it
I miss her
Written on: 18/08/2023
