The girl felt she was right
But I know she cries every night
Her situation hasn't changed
And somehow I'm still to blame
I'm shot down at every point
Every decision made
And somehow when I feel
I'm still not a real man
People judge me for who she said I was
Instead of judging for who they know I am
She's clouded their perception
She lies alot
I've realized now that I'm in love again
What I had before
Wasn't.
It was pain
It was treading on every footstep
It wasn't love
It was her leading me on
It was her constantly hurting me
But I've never been one to play victim
I was at fault for a few things
But I'll never blame her actions for mine
What I did was right to me
What she did was wrong
I'll never see it from her shoes
Because I'd never leave somebody I loved
I was struggling too
She put her needs above mine
I put hers above mine
And she knew that
She took advantage
And found a way for it to still sting 6 months after
But everything she's done is our bliss, pure laughter
I'm over her
Or so I think
I love her of course
But not in that way
I could never
I love how I loved her
I love how she left
I love how she was fine
I love how she hurt me without an observable second thought
This isn't a cry for help
Nor is this a plea
I just love how she created me.
Written on: 18/07/2023
