𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭 2 / 𝘛𝘖𝘔 𝘒𝘈𝘜𝘓𝘐𝘛𝘡

regret

TOMS POV

I stayed in the waiting room until I was basically kicked out

"Hun you need to leave" Some girl said waking me up

I grabbed my jacket and got up leaving
My eyes were puffy red by now

I walked outside with the cold air hitting my face
I didn't have a car right now so I started walking down the road

I got back to the house instantly walking into bills room

"You and lex fighting again" I heard a voice making me jump
"Fuck sake what are you doing here" I breath out
"Where's bill" T asked inhaling her joint
"Wait you wernt apart of him doing drugs were you" I say
"Kind of but you were the reason for it" She replied
"What?" I was confused
"Maybe he'll tell you later" She replied
"There will be no later and if you don't leave you won't be alive in the next 10 seconds" I huffed

She scrambled to her feet and left through the window

I started searching for the drugs around his room
I found

A weed pin
vape
a bag of coke
and a bag of weed

"What the fuck" I whisper to myself throwing it all out and then locking bills windows

When I got inside I slumped back on the couch leaning my head back

I was alone for the first time in awhile
I took my phone out

𝘮𝘺 𝘸𝘪𝘧𝘦❤️

𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘵?
𝘭𝘦𝘹𝘪?

She never replied to me
I was getting worried

"Fuck" I yelled out

I'm always fucking something up
I got up and walked out trying to find her.

A couple hours later I came home alone
I never found her

For the next week I was just laying in bed
I didn't eat
I barely slept

All these thoughts in my head about bill and lexi

A knock on the door

I didn't wanna get up to be honest
I was about to tell them to come in but the door was locked

I got up not caring what I looked like
I unlocked the door seeing lexi

She didn't say anything she was just looking up at me like she's been crying for hours on end

I quickly pulled her into a hug and held her for what felt like forever

"i'm sorry" I whispered
I could tell she was crying by her movements

I walked backwards with her against my chest closing and locking the door

She pulled away from my chest
She looked a wreck as well

I cupped her face in my hands making her look up at me
"I'm sorry" I repeated myself
"Tom" She whispered into her cry

I wanted to take her pain away

"What baby" I whisper into a remorse look for her
"Im pregnant" She whispered
"I- you are" I looked shocked

She just nodded
Why can I never be here for her when she has something important to tell me

"Fuck this is good right baby" I asked brushing my thumb against her cheek gently
"Yeah" She smiles into her cry
"We're having a baby" I whispered before picking her up and holding her

She wrapped her arms around my neck

A second chance

LEXIS POV

He was actually happy
I thought he would be mad at me or something

I wasn't gonna do it on my own again though
I was honestly scared

Tom was holding me
I was actually terrified

"Tom what if we arnt good parents again" I let out choking up on tears
"You were a great mom baby and we're gonna be great parents" He replied
"What if it dies" I was overthinking it

Tom gave me a sorrow look before putting me down

"Then we try for another lexi" He softly said
"Stop letting the past ruin the moment for us" He added

He was right

"Okay.." I whispered

Tom kneeled down lifting my shirt up

"I promise you me and mummy are gonna take good care of you" He kissed my tummy before looking up at me
"And i'm gonna take care of you to" He said standing back up

I pull him into a hug

I smiled into his neck
He would be the best dad
He never got the chance

"I love you" I whispered to him
"You have no clue" He replied holding me closely

I pull away

"How's bill?" I ask softly

Tom looked down

"He's in a better place for now" He shrugged
"Where?" I ask
"Rehab for three months" he replied
"I hope he's okay" I say

I know tom was hurting

"Oh I needed to ask you something" Tom says walking over to the counter
"Hm" I reply
"Tokio hotel got invited to the red carpet event and since bill isn't gonna be able to come I was wondering if you wanted to come" He looked over at me
"You sure that's a good idea?" I questioned
"Yeah i'll be right there with you what's the worst that could happen?" He said
"I guess yeah i'll go" I say making him smile
"Great" He says

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