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Hwang Hyunjin, If I could dream again,I hope I won't dream of you...
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Every year in November, I dream of you. Because of that dream, there was a time I thought we were meant for each other
As I dreamed of the same dream over and over again. I didn't want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that's really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you're so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare.
I saw you dying over again and again in this nightmare of mine while you drown beautifully in the endless abyss. I stand there still unable to move...
Whenever I had these dreams, I wonder if they meant something
Maybe it's the regrets that I have done to you and had gone through
Perhaps not today but one day in my dream I will save you from drowning and we will have our faithful reunion
How funny.....isn't it ironic
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But that day...why did you do that...
"Hyunjin it's raining..." That must have been the first sentence I spoke to him after high school, it was hard after all those years of bullying him in high school hating each other till our cheeks burned with silent imputation this is the only way I could bring myself to talk to him now
he looked confused unsure that I'm talking to him
"You don't go out on a rainy day, You hate rain" I wanted to ask that but I'm at no place to ask you that or to care for you
"You're going somewhere in this rain?"
"I had to take some photos by the Han River " Hyunjin answered his voice still sounds soft
I scoff at myself, embarrassing Han Jisung all these years of ignoring him with all your cheap tricks and you come up with this when your looking pathetic
Why? Cause he caught you crying... broken hearted...
Even though it has been years your voice, your looks didn't change a bit and not gonna lie he was looking even more handsome
I'm jealous like I was always of you
"Sorry for being nosy."
"No problem it's nice talking to you after many years" Hyunjin smiled softly
"Do you still like Felix?"
"Do I ?" I question myself
"Maybe I do..."
"But he just got a boyfriend you know. I am returning after meeting them" I tried to sound fine while I'm breaking down inside
He just hums afraid to say anything that would hurt me more than already i am
"That day..." I started to speak only to be cut off by him
"Don't. You don't have to mention that I already forgot those things after all it all in past"
All in past...yeah what did I expect after everything I had done to him I try to clarify my part when all I did was blame him and let him there all alone and abandon
I look at him
He did look beautiful but
When did he look so dead...there was no light in his eyes the light in his eyes he had when we were kids...
Did he always look like this?
Did he?
It was raining so hard yet he was going out to take pictures
The love Hyunjin had for nature was unbreakable but it's weird for him going out in the rain
I could see him trembling underneath his covers
he didn't have an umbrella I offered him mine
"I don't need this Jisung" he refused
"You need it and my house is near you know also this gratitude isn't for what I did in the past it's just I'm leaving for Malaysia and staying there with my dad"
Did It come out rude?
The way I'm talking to you...
I never intended to...
Jisung had kept his head low again he felt like he messed up he wanted to show his kindness to Hyunjin but it always ends up with him being sarcastic
Hyunjin smiled at him "You never change Han that is why I like you
I-i will miss you..."Hyunjin stuttered through his reply causing Jisung off guard never in his life he had heard those words from Hyunjin
"Your b-bus is h-here" I stuttered"I will take my leave Hyunjin bye"
Why am I blushing?
"Bye Han Jisung"
I stopped something wasn't right
...I turned back Hyunjin had already left..the rain was hitting me
something didn't feel right
looking at him go somehow made my heart feel things what was it? I wonder...
I felt really bad something was odd that day unsure of this feeling I went home silently
Not that I cared for Hyunjin...I ignored this weird feeling of mine after all Hwang Hyunjin was someone I never cared for... right?
"Jisung you come here after 4 years and you-"
"Felix stop asking me questions just go and call Hwang-"
"Jisung..."
"Yes, Felix-"
"Hyunjin's dead"
Now I know why I always dream of you dying over again and again in the month of November every year
It was the time where you drowned yourself
-Hwang Hyunjin-
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