I have spent my whole life nervous
Biting nails, foot tapping, fast breathing
I have been full to the brim with anxiety for as long as i can remember
This is how i thought i'd live my whole life
But then, suddenly, you were there, saying hello and
The whole world went quiet
The nerves disappeared into thin air
As if they had never been there in the first place
I've spent my whole life thinking i'd be alone
i watched my sisters and best friends become wives
my grandparents celebrating 52 years together
i thought soulmates aren't for everyone
kind of like milk or raunchy comedy
you only got one if you were quick or lucky
and i've never been either
our first date turned from 4 hours
into four days
we shared ice cream on top of a kids playground
washed each others backs and kissed under the showerhead like it was rain
walked the beach by the ocean and you didn't stop me from poking the dead sea lion
just warned me it would explode
It's been months now and the anxiety hasn't made it way back home
when i told you that i loved you, and you said it back,
i think it left for good this time
i give you poetry books after i finish them because you want to read what i like
i listen to your favorite songs and you tell me how they saved your life
we eat dinner with your parents at least twice a week
and you always say hello to my mother when she calls me
i never imagined a life like this
a life with love in it
love given directly to me
YOU ARE READING
WHEN YOU LEAVE THIS PLACE (WHAT WILL YOU TAKE?)
Poetrya collection of my poetry of the past 3 years. i appreciate you giving it a chance.