I am not a burden onto others
the only tears i shed are my own
never once have i been treated as a priority
i watch couples hold hands in public places and wonder what i have to do to deserve that
i am not a burden onto others
i isolate myself after a week of human contact
no one sees me for two months
i emerge like a moth from its shell and head to the light
nobody calls me on my birthday and i pretend not to notice
i haven't heard from my family in weeks, my friends ignore my texts
everyone is used to me being gone
i am not a burden onto others
i meet a boy who looks at me the way ive always looked at others
the feeling is new and welcomed
it only takes two months before he stops hugging me when he leaves, starts ignoring me too
i pretend i don't notice but i do
i am not worth anyone's time
i am not a burden onto others
the thought of getting left again so soon brings back memories i try to forget
i try to prioritize myself and still forget to eat for three days straight
i cry in a bathroom stall at work for the second time this week and it's only wednesday
i smoke cigarettes off the back porch and try to remember the last time someone told me they love me
i remind myself that i am not a burden onto others
i don't believe it but maybe someday i will
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Poetrya collection of my poetry of the past 3 years. i appreciate you giving it a chance.