Innocence (Ben Bruce)

Chapter 25

I woke up way too warm. Although I liked my position. I was facing Ben and I was cuddled into his chest. My arms were in the same spot I placed them last night. Last night. Memories flooded my mind causing me to smile. I slowly looked up at his face and went into awe. He looked like an angel at rest, his face looked heavenly. His breath was calm. He was in such a vulnerable state. His lips looked so perfect and pink. I was dying to kiss his lips, but i didn't have the heart to wake him. I slowly sat up and draped the duvet off my legs carefully. He made a little groan and I stopped moving instantly. I stared at his face just in case he woke up, I wanted to see his expression. But he didn't make a single move. Thank god. I draped my legs over the side of the bed and took a deep breath. I started to slowly sit up but a tugging at my wrist cause me to sit back down. I turned around to see a very sleepy Ben

"Don't go" He whispered

"I was just going to the bathroom" I smiled

"Don't go. . . please" He pleaded

"Ben" I laughed

"Please? I'll miss you too much

"Okay you twat" I laughed. I leaned in and gave him a small peck on the lips. He held my chin lightly and deepened the kiss. When we parted he had this huge grin on his face. Seeing him smile always made me happy. There was something about it. Maybe it was the little sparkle he had in his eyes when he did, or maybe it was just that he had perfect teeth and that i was jealous. But regardless to what it was, I just loved seeing it.

"Did i wake you up?" I asked

"No you didn't actually. You were barely moving. I woke up because i felt you get out of bed, and I um. . . got cold" He honestly said

"Your cutest things in the world. Ya' know?"

"I try" He smiled

"Now, come cuddle with me. Im cold" I giggled and climbed back into bed. I pressed my back against his stomach and then covered my naked body with the duvet. His body was so warm. He kissed my temple and said

"I don't think I can sleep again"

"Me either" I agreed

I turned my body around so that i would be facing him

"You look so peaceful when you sleep" I whispered.

I started tracing the tattoos on his chest with my index finger. I outlined the words 'Family First'

"What does 'Family First' stand for?"I asked

He smiled "Oh I don't know, maybe it means that i have always put my family before anyone else" He chuckled "Well, that was of course, before you" He smiled. Ah, there it was. His smile. I started tracing the birds on his chest

"What type of birds are these?" I asked confused

"There swallow's love" He said with his British accent seeking through

"And out of all of the tattoos in the world, why would you get these?" I asked curious

"Well, when the year ends, swallow's fly back home to their families. And thats what I do every year. Family First" He explained

"That makes sense" I laughed

"What about you babe? Do you want any tattoos babe?"

I smiled at his words

"You know this had nothing to do with out conversation but, I love it when you call me 'Babe' "

"Well then BABE, BABE, BABE, BABY, BABY, BABY, BABE, BABY, BABE, BABY" He yelled into my hair

"Okay, Okay. I adore it" I laughed.

"I actually want a couple"

"Oh, so two only?" He asked seriously

"No you dummy, more" I laughed

"Well go on, tell me" He encouraged

"But your going to think I'm crazy for wanting that many tattoos" I whined. His expression changes into something hilarious

"Babe, really? Take a good look at me. And tell me, what do you see?"

"I see a beautiful man that loves to scream into a microphone and loves to play six strings in front of screaming girls. I see a man that loves that loves to jump around on stage with his best friends. I also see your tattoos, there's no missing them" I smiled

"Alright then. Your not blind. Now, blow me away" He said

"Well, i want a peacock on the side of my body, A lion, A & sign on my thumb, A butterfly on my thigh, An equal sign on my back, A rose on my neck and hips, A sun, And devil horns on my back" I said

"Wow, nine tattoos, that's not that much. Okay, i know you should never ask somebody why they would get a certain tattoo, but why those specifically? I'm curious" He asked

"Well, i want the peacock because I think of it as a person. Understand? A peacock only has one color unless it opens up. And i compare it to myself. I'm my own person. I'm a very private person unless I feel safe and comfortable with you, and when I know I can trust you. I don't open up and 'Show my colors' to just anybody"

"Well, have I seen all your colors?" Ben asked looking down

"You've seen more than anyone else. Without even trying"

"Your an amazing girlfriend. OK. What about everything else?"

"I want a lion because they are strong, but careful animals. I want the & sign because Austin Carlile has it, and well I like it, it looks nice. The butterfly's for self harm. The equal sign for gay rights. The roses for my grandmother. The sun because it gives life and it gives me hope. And the metal signs for metal" I smiled

"So you are bisexual?" He asked raising an eyebrow

"Yeah...... I am..."

"Well that's alright" He smiled at me

"It doesn't bother you?" I asked surprised

"Not at all"

I smiled and yawned

"Are you sleepy?" He asked kissing my forehead

"I am" I yawned again

"Lets go to sleep my love"

"Okay"

I kissed him one last time then pressed my back against hist chest. He was still warm. I loved this. The position we were in. How we were alone, together in my room without anyone else knowing. How we were naked. And how I feel comfortable around him. And how I don't care how my body looked, or how Ilooked around him. He already liked me. I feel so special and extremely lucky. I will never fully understand how this came to be. I still cannot believe that I'm In a bed with Ben Bruce. Ben Bruce is my boyfriend. I will never get tired of saying that. I'm not letting this go.