don't hurt me please I've had enough (Mammon angst)

chap 50

Mammon pov

As I heard Asmo say that I immediately covered my ears not wanting to hear it

I felt heart broken I looked around to find jan...

Oh..

Wait..

Shes gone..

So I decided to go to my bathroom taking out my blade

As I glide the cold blade onto my skin cutting it causing it to bleed out

I did it multiple times until I felt satisfied
I felt a little better..

It looks like my skin is crying for me I feel comforted..

As I washed my arm and the blade I stored it back and now I left the bathroom

I went to my bed and slept it through

Next morning: Monday

I woke up looking at the time of its 5am

How long have I slept for..
I counted it seems like 12 hours
Haa.....

I got up talked to my closet to take out my uniform and went to the bathroom to take a shower

A few minutes later

I finished showering drying my self first then putting on my clothing

I went out the bathroom to dry my hair and  styling it afterwards

I dont wanna meet them today I'll run for it

I opened my bedroom door after taking my bag and ran fast out of the house

I smiled as I got out not a sight of my "brothers"

I went to school going in I saw my friends I smiled "hi guys" I said as I waved my hand yumi first looked at me and ran after jumping into me

"Why tf did you skip school-" yumi said and I tried to say something " -WITHOUT ME?!" She yelled as I laughed bringing her down

"Yea sorry" I said yumi then held my arms ouch fuck  I tried to move my hand away but yumi didnt want to but I guess it's fine...

I cant have them knowing..

Derek looked at me and said "let's hangout after school, two of us." The others looked at him "EH?! what about us" they said

"Next time I wanna talk to him later " they said some Os and let him

I nodded I wonder what it is.

I hope he doesn't know fuck..

But what if he knows..

If he knows fuck fuck what am I going to say!

I stopped thinking about it and just walked with them..

So I couldn't help my anxiety rising over this

Let's skip the boring class.. (I'm also lazy to write it)

School has ended I walked out of my classroom and walked to the school exit and saw derek there waving his hand

"Hi,lets go to my car" derek said wait what he has a car now?!
"Ok.." I said to him walking with him to his car dam it was fucking nice where did he get this

"So how are you?" Derek asked "I.. I'm um ok.." I answered nervously

"Ok. Good" derek said since the the cafe was close we decided to go there

We got there and got out walking inside

I took my seat as derek smiled at me and said he would go and order

After a few minutes he came back with the drinks
And food

I look at the drink and drank it taste a bit weird but I brushed it off

Me and derek talked for 10 minutes until my vision...

What is happening?!.. it started to go blurry and blurry then black I went into Derek's arms

Derek pov

I smirked finally you're ___..

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Anyways 2 days till christmass marry early Christmas lol