don't hurt me please I've had enough (Mammon angst)

Chap 18

Keywords:
Thoughts
"talking"
important words

Tw:

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Would they feel betyer if i hurted my self would they be happier if im gone? his thoights kept repeating

yes
they will
if will be better if you judt hurted yourself
hurt yourself
They dont like you
Yes hurt yourself
if you harm yourself it'll make them happy

his thoughts kept flooding in he thought about it...

Theres a side of his thoughts aswell where he could bearly hear

dont do it
You have friends that love you
dont please
no
what if they see this they will feel hurt

Mammom heard it so he decided to listen to his positive thoughts for now..

he heard the bell so he got up and went inside then walked to his class

he got there and went inside he was greeted by his teacher "hello Mammon take a seat" his history teacher said mrs. Hya.

He nodded and walked to his seat next to Yumi "yo Mammon" yumi said energetic "hello yumi" he replied

the 2 greeted him too "Hi Hi" yuki said "yo" nero says he waved to them

time skip - school ended

the teachers dismissed them so Mammon got his things and walked to nero to ask something "nero can i go to your house later?" Mammon said "sure mammon but  why?" Nero said

"Uh nothing..i just wantes to hangout.. yea" Mammon said "ok are you gonna come right now?" Nero asked "no because im hanging out with derek.. but can you come derek wont mind" Mammon replied

Nero nodded and decided to join them they bid their goodbyes to the 2 girls and left they walked to dereks class and saw him

"hi derek" nero and Mammon said "yo Mammon and nero, also Mammon why is Nerl here?" Derek asked "well can he join?" Mammon asked derek looked annoyed but hidden it

i wanted just the 2 of us Mammon why would you ask Nero to join.. fuck  derek thought but gave a fake smile and said "ofcourse why not i dont mind"  he said trying to hide the fact he didnt like it.

"Thank you Derek!" Mammon said and derek smiled at Mammons reaction they walked out the school

"Lets go to the amusement Park!" Mammon said "ok, lets go to my car" Nero said well usually Derek and Mammon will get on a bus bit since nero has a car  they didnt

Nero walked to his car while the two followed him they got in and nero drove to the nearst amusement park

Mammon asked nero to put songs and nero nodded He putted Mammons favorite songs and they all jammed together singing after one another

they got to their destination and Derek got out first to open the door to Mammon he and Mammon Waited for nero nero caught up to them.

they walked to the ticket booth and bought their tickets inside

"which one should we do ride first?" mammon said as he was saying that someone was watching him...

"Boss we got him he will pay for hurting...".

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thats good enough
ey chap 18 donee