Deeper poetry for the more advanced swimmer

Frustration

I'm tired of life right now,
I don't want to live today.
I was born to be someone else,
But I'm stuck in the misery.
I'd like to become a monster,
So people would leave me alone.
I'd like to be somewhere else,
So I might feel less alone.
And all of the things I say,
Ring with a little truth.
I'm done with the things the world says,
I'm done with the lies that I knew.
I want to be a flower,
My life could be short and sweet.
I'd like it if the people around me,
Could just back off and let me breathe.
Sometimes that isn't an option,
Sometimes you sink too deep,
Maybe if I were an angel,
I'd finally feel free.
But I know that I can't leave yet,
There's too much I haven't seen,
Perhaps I could skip this moment?
A breath of fresh air would be great for me.
I don't know how I got here,
But it's the only way I can think.
I don't know what I want to change,
But maybe it might be everything.
Perhaps if I start all over,
I could change what the others see.
Perhaps if I start all over,
I can be honest to the real me.