Stay with me

.6.

After my argument with Danzo happened work was awkward and mostly quiet.

The tension between us just grew. I started cairing my gun with myself.

When the meetings ended I packed my stuffs and left as fast as I could.
I didn't do the work in that office anymore.

I rather did my work at home where I could watch Sasuke.

Just as I promised I teached him how to play table tennis days ago.
He was so good at it I don't even wanna count how many times he had beat me.

Oh yeah.
I have a day off finally.
So I wake up and got into a shower to freshen up.

Me and Sasuke had planned staying home he didn't really wanna go out these days.
Maybe he got a bad dream that is making his anxiety worse.

He started open up again I will try to make him talk about his past again.
I tried to read some books about how to deal with trauma.
I don't wanna see him as me pressuring him or forcing him.

Just wanna make him feel safe.

As the water pours down on my body I start feeling myself relaxing.
Sasuke laughed at me saying I'm weird for taking cold showers.

He also said I shouldn't work out that much.
I just rolled my eyes on that comment I only work out once a day for 1 hour.
Have to keep up my muscles.

To be fair Sasuke has a more feminine body than mine.
He has a small waist and slim arms.
His collarbone sticking out whenever he wears a t shirt.

He just got a beautifully curved body.
He is gorgeous.

After I finish showering and put away my gay thoughts of Sasuke I dress up in something causal.

I walk down the stairs to see Sasuke eating breakfast.

"Good morning." I say as he looks up and wave since his mouth is full.

I walk to the fridge to see if I can eat something.
Should I make eggs for myself?

I'm too lazy for that so I'm just gonna eat some cereal.

"How did you sleep?" I hear Sasuke voice behind me

"Good and you? Did you had a nightmare today?" I try to make him open up with these innocent question.
He has been dealing with them I told him we could check it out but he said they will go away.

So I shrugged it off by saying that I don't wanna force him.

I bite my lip waiting for his answer.
"Not really I woke up before anything bad could have happened." He said his head hung low.

Fuck his nightmares will never stop.
I sit down and pour some milk into my bowl first.

"I guess you didn't had to suffer watching it again. That's something right?" I add the cereal as I wait patiently for his answer.
I wanna make the atmosphere more comfortable with me not juts focusing on him.

"Yes I'm glad I didn't had to experience it again."

"Do you wanna talk about it?" I ask.

I wanna know more about him I can't help him if I don't really know what's still hurting him.

"It was a memory of me two years ago. I was using drugs back then. I was a big fucking addict. Drugs helped me deal with the club.
Helped me forget about the men's touching me.
Whispering dirty things in my ear. They made me forget.
That's the only thing I wanted at those times.
So I started using it while I was working too.
Men noticed that and they took advantage of me.
Of course my boss didn't care.
She never cared about things like this." He shrugged his body was slightly shaking.