Neighbours

Chapter 105 ~ Defend Myself

Dixies Pov:

Blake was absolutely right. If i kill myself then everyone will feel some type of pain so i cant do that. Maybe suicide isnt the answer but i need to get rid of this pain that i feel. The last time that i felt this strong kind of pain, i turned numb and couldnt stop self harming. I cant pick up a blade or lighter and start back because i know that if i do, i wont be able to stop and bean doesnt deserve a mom that always self harms; Just like Noah doesnt need a girlfriend who always self harms

Dixie: Im sorry

Noah: For what?

Dixie: Wanting to kill myself

Noah: Promise me you wont ever consider it again

Dixie: I promise

Noah: Can we go eat now?

Dixie: Im still really not hungry bubba

Noah: But im sure bean is, so can we go now?

Dixie: And you called me stubborn

Noah: For bean?

Dixie: For bean. Lets go

Noah and i got up from the bed and held hands as we walked into the kitchen. Everyone was in the kitchen, at the table, while Mrs. Beck and my mom making food. Noah made me sit by the table, in the middle of Tatum and Bryce and he stood behind me, holding my hand

Noah: What do you want to eat baby?

Dixie: Anything

Noah: Thats not an answer. What type of food are you feeling for?

Dixie: Chinese

Noah: Will you wait for it if i uber order it or do you want something that is at home to eat?

Amy: Next 5 minutes the salad would finish so she will eat this since its healthy

Noah: Will you eat the salad?

Dixie: Mhm

Noah: I will make fries and nuggets for her

Tatum: She just said that she will eat the salad though so why are you going to make something so unhealthy for her?

Noah: You dont know her like i do Tatum. She barely even like salad so if she says 'mhm' its an uncertainty most of the time from her

Charli: No, she just says that to trick you

Noah: Dont start again Charli, im warning you!

Charli: Or what will you do? Punish me like you punish Dixie?

Noah: CHARLI!

Dixie: Noah, ignore her. She is being disgusting at this point

Noah: No, im not going to ignore her. I will call Chase right now and tell him how disgusting and immature his girlfriend is

Marc: Dont you dare call Chase Noah! This is between Dixie and Charli so stay out of it because we all know that Charli is more than correct

Tim: She isnt Marc but forget it. Noah, go get Dixie something to eat

Noah: Will you eat the fries and nuggets Dix?

Dixie: Canned sausage please

Noah: Alone or with bread or biscuit?

Dixie: Alone

Noah: Will that full your tummy?

Dixie: Mhm

Noah: Ok

Tatum: She just said it again so it wont full her belly

Noah: You dont get it, do you Tatum? This time she is telling the truth