Fake it till you make it - Lucathy

2 - Amaranth

'Open the door'

I took out my keys and unlocked the main front door.

It was a huge wooden double door with metal strips and a metal door handle that was vertical.

"Where's Jennette?" Immediately when I opened the door I was greeted by father.

'Tell the truth but don't mention with who or why.'

"At the studio." I replied still keeping my head down.

"Look at me when I'm talking to you." Father commanded.

'Im scared...' I felt my hands shaking.

'Look him in the eye, don't falter' my second voice started talking again which relieved me.

"Why did you take her car?" Father asked glaring at me.

'What should I do...' I was honestly on the edge of crying but I didn't...

This was how I slowly trusted my second voice more then myself...

It always gets me out of situations like this...

When my own thoughts didn't work...

My second voice would always come to save the day...

'Shut down your emotions, tell him ' Jennette was running late and insisted that I drive her car back home'' My second voice said.

'Right... My emotions are an obstacle right now.' I did as my second voice said and pushed away all of my feelings..

I learnt this skill from crying in a corner...

Untill I couldn't cry anymore....

Untill everything was blurry and I couldn't even breath...

Untill my eyes were swollen and red...

Untill my voice went horse and I could no longer make a sound...

Untill I felt numb...

Empty...

Like emotions didn't exist...

Like I had to many of them running in my head till the point that it overflowed...

"Jennette was running late and insisted that I drive her car back home" I said in a respectful tone as I looked at him with a poker face.

"You should've waited for her!" Father started screaming.

'I tried but she refused to let me wait'

"I tried but she refused to let me wait" I replied calmly.

"I see..." Father's temper finally cooled as he just walked away from me...

I took of my shoes and placed them into the shoe cabinet, at the same time making sure all the shoes were in their place.

'I felt like I was going to die!'

'Walk upstairs and get changed.' Following my second voice I went up to the second story.

The second story has 5 rooms.

The last one of the left is my room

'what do I wear?'

'Wear the white turtle neck with those black pants.'

'Why a turtle neck?' My thoughts asked but my second voice didn't reply.